moii.pwincess.world

2007-01-26T01:39:00.000-08:00

Cool pics arhx..!! lols.. it's all da wayy from plaza dwn to TANG..
since a long tym den we sat tgt to tk photos..!! love iit though..

well.. kinda not such a gd dayy coz stuff happen and yea.. though singiin da hell out of myself.. ii'm not iin a veryy gd mood.. okie.. shall start wif sumtin light in order not to spoil sum mood.. well.. projects are endiin and yea.. soon it's exams.. den it's end of 2nd yr.. tat's fast.. but tink overseas will cum faster too.. tis tym it's myy turn to leave.. so tired..!! is tat a gd choice? but ii fought so much for tat chance.. ii cant head backk nw.. trust mii... ii'll b backk iin 1 piece..

for sumthin heavier, spent lots of myy slpiin tym @ fel's work place and yea.. myy ger's grandma funeral.. tk care yea.. life still goes on.. lead a cheerful life man.. brks myy heart to see all of euu cryy..

kkies den dwn to hey.. all guys lie!! LIAR.. hahas.. dun ever say wait wen euu cant.. it's been awhile for nw but.. dun tell mii euu rather hav mii wen euu olreadii hab sum1 wif euu.. dun ask mii to be selfish to snatch euu over.. be grateful for tat ger hu treats euu better den mii.. dun ever step backk into mii and get urself all mixed up.. tk care boi..

for the past few dayys.. myy heart's been floatiin and flyiin ard.. is tat flirt? NOPE..! is tat myy fault? NOPE!! coz ii juz cant find a place for myy heart to stayy.. yy do ii olwaes crush into situation where r/s r nearlyy impossible.. for huever it concern, ii noe it wun work and ii'm juz happii it happen once.. ii'm tired of endless waitiin esp wen it wun b mine.. so ii'll juz stayy put and see hw tings goes.. it's often better tis way aint iit.. a wayy out for mii..

oh.. sumone sayy ii look younger den myy godbro.. wahaha.. so damn happii.. ii'm young!! and due to tat mistook mii as his gf.. awww..!!! well.. he's myy investment so maybb yea.. if he dun mind 'jie di' r/s ii might consider.. wahaha.. wat crapp..!! okie well.. gg ta skool tml so juz wanna update abit in case ppl tink myy blog has closed dwn.. lalala~ ii'm goiin ta bed..!! nitex....

it's okie is wat ii olwaes sayy..
but hu noes da blood da tears da snow iin mii..
ii'm freeziin deep dwn iin dere..
iin myy heart..
shakiin and shiveriin..
embrace mii wif ur warmth..
keep mii in ur arms..
wat ii hab nw iis nthiin more den memories..
ii HATE!!

2007-01-14T23:57:00.000-08:00

dumb sis @ sharon workiin place..!!

sweet? gentle? wahaha.. ii'm..!!

hell of a week..!! hmm.. didnt really start well.. coz ii lost myy wallet and all the craps iin grand drivin mii crazyy.. but well.. fortunatelyy it didnt cum to an end..!! coz sum kind soul returned myy wallet... thnx so much.. to whoever iit is.. euu didnt noe hw much it means to mii wen euu return iit.. and yea.. abt skool.. tink tis sem's goiin fast coz it's mid jan and 1 more mth or lesser = exams and end of yr 2.. oh.. another ting to update abt.. ii'm goiin to china (changdu) or (chengdu) for attachment.. not so soon but well.. tym really flies.. so juz dun miss mii too much..

been faciin shit and yea.. wateva it is.. hackk it.. ii dun gib a damn wen euu go for another ger.. but ii reallyy dun understand the mentality euu hab wen euu woo other gers and patch wif ur ex and still say euu cant get mii out of ur mind..!! juz to let euu noe..!! euu disgust mii.. simplyy so.. ii hate liars.. ii rather euu say euu no longer lik mii coz ii'll feel super happii coz we're still frenz.. but tis is sumtiin unforgivable.. ii nv will..

tots of openiin a pub sumdayy.. idea frm jie.. lol.. but tink even if so.. not tat soon.. ii'll juz be a shareholder.. wahaha.. mayb grand reallyy tot of gettin rid of us.. ii dun mind.. coz grand to mii iis onlii temporayy.. except for my grand families dere.. there's nthin much to miss.. ii will definitelyy create war wif management if ii decide to leave.. mark myy words coz theyy are reallyy too much.. die..!!! hahas.. lik bian tai.. but yea.. juz wanna fa xie.. hope tis week starts well..

2007-01-08T16:28:00.000-08:00

iin skool nw..!! wahaha.. test results not tat bad after all.. credit goes to myy xiao zhu for teachiin mii pvl and though ii fail by 1 mark.. good effort ger.. and yea.. dun denyy ii reallyy help euu lots for REL horx...!!! luckyy euu nv disappoint mii.. and yea.. studyyin onlii duriin bus ride to skool.. so myy resutls ii'm quite satisfied..!! for ppl who are yearnin to noe myy results..!!! pvl 24/50.. rel 37/50.. elh 90/100.. upe 96/100.. pjm 73.. ibs 61/100.. nw euu noe..!! so stop compariin coz ii dun gib a damn abt results..!! thnx..

god ii'm tired.. so got feel to create myy personal blogskin but duno hw and no tym to learn.. hahas.. nw iis rush hour for projects... stress totallyy.. ii'm goiin shoppin ltr.. finallyy.. ii wanna shop lik crazyy.. after projects will be quite peace til feb where ii'll onlii be haviin 2 exam papers.. den wahaha.. long awaited holidaysss........ yuppies..

ii dun wanna sayy anythiin nw ler.. tok ltr bahx.. bb..

2007-01-03T18:33:00.000-08:00

wel.. slackkiin at myy beloved fel hse nw.. 1st day of skool iis crap.. well.. myy test wasnt tat bad after all.. but guess tis iis juz da 1st part arhx.. lol.. the fail part will cum behind.. wahaha..~ shit ii'm pathetic..!! anywayy.. laptop crashh coz of stupid virus..!! reformate ler.. so guess it'ss pretty emptyy.. wth!!

ii'm so tired.. so amazed ii actuallyy can slp ytd.. hahas.. can actuallyy wake up iin tym.. fel workiin ltr so onlii can eet for dinner.. sad..!! skool start ler.. so guess.. tings will start to change bahx.. sianx.. hope not much changes after all.. well.. can onlii sayy my batch of REB are veryy competitive..!! even myy advisor tinks it's unhealthy..

argh** wat else can i do besides workiin and studyyiin.. lik so crap.. and hey.. pretty useless ar.. hahas.. ii'm not depressed.. reallyy not.. ii'm kinda tired onlii.. wahaha.. ii'm still so mad dumb and crazyy.. yeah!! tat's it den.. update wen ii done myy projects and get tings iin my lappyy.. bb~

2006-12-24T06:52:00.000-08:00

hahas.. countiin dwn at grand workiin ltr.. look at the tym.. ii'm still awake..!! hahas.. haix.. a yr ago.. tis day tis date.. euu push awayy my hands holdiin onto euu.. duriin count dwn iin town.. euu crush every single hope ii hab on euu.. da love ii tot we used to hab.. gone..!! we're done and over.. but ii juz cant tell anyone hw heart wreakiin it was.. no one will ever understand.. the tears the blood the pain ii hab.. ii dun love euu.. ii really dun.. but euu not onlii leave mii hurtful memories but oso painful xmas.. ii let go of euu once.. and euu did da same to mii last yr.. guess we're quit.. we no longer owe each other anythiin..

ii'm feeliin giddyy.. a stupid headache.. hahas.. guys r not meant ta be trusted ii guess.. the phrase" ii'll wait for euu".. hw laughable hw stupid and wat emptyy promises.. ii said tat once to euu.. and ii didnt kept iit.. so do so many hu said tat to mii.. they nv kept iit.. RETRIBUTION.. hahas.. finallyy it came..

ever wondered.. yy do ii need to wear tat smileyy mask and face da world.. yy da world nv seem fair to mii.. yy muz ii console ppl help ppl wen deep dwn ii cant help myself.. and deep dwn myy heart's gettiin colder each dayy.. ii dun even recognise da mii nw.. hu am ii?? hu actuallyy am ii..? tryyiin so hard to b dere for everyone.. but no 1 seemed to b dere for mii.. mayb ii dun treasure.. but dun mean ii dun need iit.. yy blame mii beiin a cold blooded wen ii cant find a ting or place to be warm.. ii'm losiin myy senses.. myy feeliin.. where shld ii actuallyy b.. ii'm lost...

hahas.. tiis is da theory babyy.. wat ii'm tokiin abt.. thnx for lettiin mii noe iit's true.. promises r meant to b broken.. and ii'm not blamiin anyone.. coz ii noe iit'll end up tis wayy.. so ii sayy nv promise to wait.. tiis is wat ii mean.. ii shldnt promise iin da 1st place to [euu].. den it might not hurt tat muchh.. once agaiin.. sorryy dai.. but wat's over iis over.. merry xmas all.. loves..~

da snow tat falls on xmas..
fall iin my heart..
freeziin myy heart bits by bits..
it's all numb, frozen..
overall.. ii'm juz a heartless creature..
without feeliin without everythiin..........

2006-12-20T02:57:00.000-08:00

lol.. miss mii?? coz ii'm backk at bloggiin.. juz finish workk n home ii'm.. been workkiin ever since ii finish exams.. lots hab changed n well.. da world's unbelievable.. wateva it is.. ii'm tired of all da rubbishh.. hope ii do can stayy awayy frm those crapps.. wat frens?? closer frens?? best frens? ii dunno reallyy noe nw..

hangiin out wif grand ppl tis few dayys.. kinda used to it ler.. workk or off stil dere.. hmm.. sorryy myy dears if ii cant meet euu guyys.. but well.. tink euu guys still lead ur lives fine.. hmm.. grp bookiin is killin mii but yea.. ii'm still alive.. lol lame but ya.. oh ya.. busyy haviin "ai mei" relation" wif hong hong.. hahas.. he's juz so cute.. ahem.. " age is not a problem, height is not a distance and weight is not a pressure".. wahaha.. hopefullyy he wun fall for mii.. hope ii wun play fire til burn hand.. lol.. tink it's unlikelyy either.. coz fallin for mii iis miserable.. euu bet it iis.. but well.. cant reallyy imagine the scence if we r tgt.. lol..

well.. juz wanna update abit.. coz lik super long nv.. and ii'm not dead still jumpiin alive.. sorrie to disappoint ppl hu wishh ii'm dead.. coz ii'm not.. tk care my loves.. bb..

2006-11-20T09:47:00.000-08:00

hmm.. hahas.. well.. kinda crappyy tis dayys.. feeliin kinda werid and mixed.. dunno wat its all about but well.. nthiin good ii supposed..!! life's not lik wat ii used to tink it was anymore.. so sick and tired of everythiin.. skool was crapp adn hw ii wish for hols to cum..

common test cumiin soon.. dunno wanna b happyy or not.. CT arrival means the arrival of hols... but oso the start of stupid test and test.. so much endless projects and test.. sianx.. wed haviin one test.. den next fri and the next next week of the entire weeks.. one word.. SHIT.. hmm.. ii flunk myy basic and haviin retest on the 28th.. so hopiin it'll be done by den.. hahas.. test after test.. dumb..

wanna so much to watch step up!! omg.. so deprive of watchiin movie even wen ii'm workiin in GV.. hahas.. stella and royy lookiin at mii bloggiin.. it's lik.. SO WEIRD.. hahas.. oh ya.. tink ii'll be discussiin to studyy or work overseas wif myy mum.. so.. do miss mii if it's approved.. hahas.. dear.. ii miss myy gers..

2006-11-12T23:47:00.000-08:00

hmm.. finally online juz to get my IBS done.. well.. juz copy and paste whole chunck of rubbish.. hope it's rite anywayy.. lol.. 20% wor.. kel came t workk.. kinda surprise at da start.. coz he 1stly dun lik mii workiin dere.. well.. done wif skool stuff CT cumiin soon.. tis weekend was.. wow... lol.. been thru lots of stuff.. anywayy.. luckyy ii was not impluse.. didnt make myy wrong decision..

after fri dinner went ta boat quay instead of zoukk.. drink til haviin super hangover.. but well.. it's over anywayy.. hmm.. wateva norx.. ii'm startiin myy new week and ii'm goiin for myy bacis theory test tis thurs..!! yea.. hope ii pass man..... cant wait til my license.... lalala~

2006-11-10T10:19:00.000-08:00

hmm.. skool iis full of crapp tis few dayys.. sianx.. everytym late tink payy iis gona finish byy takiin cab every morning to skool.. sianx.. super hungry nw.. teacher checkkiin tutorial qns.. luckky got do.. so boredd..... so super tired.. lots of event tis few dayys.. haviin endless skool and workk.. tonite haviin YMCA dinner.. still tinkiin whether to go zouk.. hmm.. tml workiin morniin.. nite still need go skool for the production.. hmm.. wat a life......

wat ii wan iis a simple life wif simple ppl wif simple tots.. complicated feeliin and tots make mii sick and tired.. ii'm gettin so tired of everythiin.. ii dun get it.. weariin a mask for sum long.. hw much longer can it last.. wat's mii?? hmm..

it's the pride, love, attitude
tat keeps mii goiin..

2006-10-22T05:04:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. well.. it's been peace for mii.. but guess not so for others.. or mayb they are haviin peace too.. hahas.. saw fel todae.. reallyy lik ur dressiin tis wayy.. it's nice.. trust mii euu shld actuallyy go tis lane.. lol.. reallyy femine... guess it's spell tis wayy.. anywayy.. yea.. dun tink much yea.. wateva happen.. mii and wen will still b dere..!! good luck for ur studyy ger..!!

super tired since skool start.. dunno yy.. hab been slpiin but dun tink it was ever enuff.. hmm.. tinkiin of changiin blogskin but well.. it's complicated..!! hahas.. super slpyy nw.. it's tym ii go slp ler.. yups.. haven been hangiin out much wif myy 2 beloved sis.. dun worryy.. ii still rmb euu guys.. no one and ii say NO ONE can replace euu guys iin my heart..

lastlyy.. juz to sayy.. myy chalet photos r out!! well.. uploaded one r those ii tink it's pretty.. the rest's at hm.. find one dayy bring dwn and we shall tink backk to wen we took those foto.. got ii forget too..!! hahas.. tk cares all.. pics r below.. lurves....!!

2006-10-22T04:51:00.000-07:00

the surprise myy bros gave..!! thnx.. but next tym dun liddat ler..

cake cutting session... cake given by beloved sis mei and frenx.. thnx..!!

the crazyy guy and myy best ever bro!!

joel!!!! hahas.. myy darling.....

euu gerss simplyy rox myy world...... ii do hope no misunderstandiin will bring us apart..!!

2006-10-22T04:40:00.000-07:00

fel and gin.. lurve euu ger.. (fel drunk!!) qin and mii..!!

wen and mii.. lurves her too.. wahaha..!! yu pei jie..

the 4 onlii gers @ myy 18th bdayy!! bros for life.. thnx for making myy dayy....

well.. thnx for the surprise.. lurves euu guys lots....!!

the guys @ myy chalet..!! dumb.. but adorable..!! hahas.. tis iis da dayy ii will nv forget..!!

2006-10-11T02:03:00.000-07:00

bloggiin lik since ii got the chance..!! anywayy.. 11/10 needa go bbdc let dem see the ic.. crap.. den after tat need go grand ler.. hmmm.. lik so no tym for alot of tiing.. dunno whether wateva ii do iis rite or wrong..

ii'm tinkiin much but well.. GC wasnt tat good to go up anywayy.. euu get allowance yes.. but euu got lots of eyes in euu.. new iin grand den up so fast.. cant expect to reallyy please everyone tis ii noe.. but iit's not myy decision anywayy.. ii juz work accordiin to schedule.. not lik ii got a choice.. got ii oso dun wan so fast.. wateva ii oso will tink ii'm not experience enuff de lorx.. haix.. but well.. since oso up ler.. crap wif iit.. juz gona do wat ii'm supposed to.. den we'll see bahx..

bodyy feeliin veryy veryy werid.. headache lik every nite sia.. dun understand yy oso.. den everytym headache mood swing ler.. hmm.. sry if ii blackk face or tone not good or wateva.. coz ii'm juz feeliin super uncomfortable...

2006-10-10T14:08:00.000-07:00

myy uniform..!! ii reallyy look lik bun mehx?? lik so women iin blackk.!! ;)

toopid haze..!! great world frm my hse!

the trayy ii spilled myy water!! hahas.!

hahas.. well.. been workiin lots.. and due to the stupiid haze tat was so bad.. ii'm SICK.. coughiin lik shit.. well.. workiin iin gold class nw.. kinda feel werid coz ii'm juz a newbie.. hope ii'm seriouslyy tinkiin too much.. hmm.. anywayy.. fun workiin iin lounge.. juz a new experience for mii bahx.. hahas.. and toopid fel sayy ii look lik bun weariin the uniform.. ass..!! tis iis the onlii tym ii feel at least a nice uniform wor.. throw cold water at mii..!! sob* lolx.. oh ya.. anywayy.. ii spilled 4 cups of ice lemon tea on customer on myy 2nd dayy.. feeliin so guiltyy abt iit.. wahaha.. but well.. sam say ii'm not so bad after all.. luckyy customer good..!!

went to enrol drivin ler.. hahas.. cool..!! but hmm.. tink still needa dragg awhile coz no moneyy.. all myy payy iin it ler.. sad..!! but well.. hope it's worth the sacrifies.. hahas.. opps.. ii'm so lookiin forward to driviin.. oh ya.. went cosyy bay tat dayy.. guess sun bahx.. drove joel's car juz one round ard the carpark.. so nice.. wahaha.. goiin crazyy...!!

ii'm seriousllyy enjoyyiin wat ii hab nw.. regardless of wateva iit is.. bro court postpone to playboii bdayy.. guess and hope postpone agaiin.. skool startiin soon.. ii tink ii reallyy need to seriouslyy learn hw to manage myy tym ler.. got skool driviin and work..!! argh* stress....!!

2006-10-06T00:31:00.000-07:00

HOME SWEET HOME!! MISS MYY MAMA LOTS..!!

workiin and workiin after chalet.. hmm.. hab to recover loss after spendiin so much for the chalet.. well.. tml headiin up to gold class ler.. dunno iis good or bad anywayy.. sianx.. anywayy juz for more experience bahx.. hahas.. toopid hair curl backk ler.. still tinkiin whether to go make mahx.. anywayy.. tml gold class hab to tie hair.. so after tml den sayy bahx.. hahas.. tm openiin man..!! goiin crazyy..

well.. tings aint goiin tat bad.. but well.. oct 9 cumiin.. though theyy say will postpone but ii still feel kinda sumthiin will happen soon.. reallyy hope bro iis fine.. noe he cant escape punishment but stil not used to not seein him sia.. a hand-made bdayy card from hiim.. so touchiin.. love euu bro..!! hahas.. ii reallyy will miss euu sia.. esp duriin myy bdayy if euu not ard..

well myy darl sis.. dun tink so much kkies.. wateva happen... tat's still a MISS SOH here..!! no worries.. ii will nv abandon euu de.. so stop sayyiin wat meet less or wat kkies.. sumtyms ii ppl may hide or do stuff but well.. look on the bright side.. they might meant good.. as least theyy care abt ur feeliin.. kkies.. ii noe hw iit feels.. dun worryy..!! ur darl here will stick to the ground lik a stone.. so no matter where euu go.. if euu ever need mii.. juz turn ard and euu can see mii standiin dere juz for euu.. promise..!!

2006-10-06T00:03:00.000-07:00

tat dayy at moii place.. reallyy consideriin contacts.. hmm..

look at qin's face.. omg!! hahas.. before rebondiin..!!

bus rides..!! after rebondiin.. damnn.. iit curl backk ler..!!

2006-10-03T01:32:00.000-07:00

ii got lots to crap todae.. coz berii long nv update plus alot of tings happen and plus.. myy bday chalet juz over.. hahas.. well.. joel leong.. ur effort did not go into waste coz ii'm happii.. thnx.. anywayy.. thnx myy sis and bros.. though not much ppl.. but reallyy had fun.. luv euu guyys lots.. well mayb coz it might b the last tym euu guyys can celebrate my bday wif mii.. but no worryy kkies.. we wun separate de.. jia you..!!

drinkkiin lik crazyy.. fel's drunk kel's drunk.. and ii am sufferiin frm dead serious gastric prob.. the best part iis ii lose myy voice.. hmm.. worth iit bahx.. all the fun despite myy stupid bros make mii cry.. next tym surprise dun play til liddat horx.. cry out veryy pai seh de lehx... ass.. once iin 3 yrs lehx.. myy tears finallyy fall ler.. but ii'm really touched.. thanx.. no better words to sayy but euu all rox.. including myy sis lahx.. cant live without them.. hahas..... photo takiin was lots of fun.. cant wait til ii get those photos.. hahas.. tiis iis wat pwincess life iis all abt.. it wouldnt b without euu all.. coz ii simplyy feel lik one..!!! thnx..

though stuff happened conflicts ocurr but well.. it's all over.. and we're still together.... shall blogg up the pics one dayy wen ii got iit.. anywayy juz glad everythiin turn out well.. ii love wat ii hav nw.. juz statisfied wif it tis wayy.. yi wen's ting we shall see lahx har.. coz ii hurt him a yr or 2 ago.. dunno whether wat will happen again..

well.. to all hu wans to noe.. ii'm totallyy over him ler.. really gave a serious tot abt wat fel qin and wen said.. hahas.. actuallyy didnt really tk him as 'THE ONE' lik ii used to.. but nw.. it's totallyy nthin.. trust mii.. even if ii dun accept relations.. dun mean ii still liks him.. coz it's no longer possible.. mark myy words.. coz ii meant iit.. daryl euu no longer is da one ii yearn for... and ii'm actually glad ii let it dwn.. coz it's meaningless.... thnx for da past.. it will be THE PASt.. memories ii tk it.. no longer holdiin, prayyiin, hopin euu r mine.. tat's all.. hahas..

2006-09-21T19:43:00.000-07:00

backk to hm.. wen fel and qin went to wen hse for dinner.. chargiin hp at hm.. feeliin of hm so nice.. yea.. well.. tym pass fast.. ii'm crappiin.. anywayy.. toopid fel and mii webcam ytd.. hahas.. power ranger.. so cute arhx.. ;) sianx..........

ii'm haviin the feeliin of 2-3 yrs backk.. well.. wasnt tat nice a feeliin.. but yea.. tat tym backk wen ii'm haviin probation.. hahas.. ii'm alone.. well.. not reallyy alone but almost.. anywayy.. ii noe euu guyys wil b dere for mii.. ii'm not changiin da fact tat euu guys r not.. but the point here iis tat ii reallyy feel funny esp wen we tok iis lik.. hmmm... ii dunno.. simplyy kinda lik missed out lots of tings.. ii noe coz ii workiin meet bros and stuff but.. ii feel bad.. reallyy bad.. sryy to sayy so.. but ii rather direct den to hide and get all the [xin bin].. hahas.. well.. maybb iit wasnt so badd.. juz the fact everythiin changes too much at such a short tym.. hmm.. well.. thnx for beiin dere i guess.. tk care~

da.closest.hurts.more.wen.tings.goes.wrong.
da.wound.iis.deep.and.the.pain.iis.unbearable.
dun.let.mii.feel.ii.hab.iit.but.actuallyy.not.
ii.gave.up.love.for.da.sake.of.peace.
ii.wish.not.to.give.up.others.as.well.

2006-09-21T01:18:00.000-07:00

woke up and straight to beloved kerri's hse.. lol.. went ta holland V to get her stuffs.. den dwn to town to buy her stuff too.. well.. ii checked the price of those liquor at far east ler.. vodka is $49.50 for absolute and ard 59 or 69 for vodka mandarin.. chivas is 80.. well.. decide kkies gers.. coz ii reallyy dunno stuff abt tis.. yups..

bdayy cumiin.. was actuallyy kinda excited coz ii haviin chalet and stuff aand yea hui wen probation finish and well 18th bdayy.. but den wasnt tat excited after all.. lots of stuff not done.. invitation list not cfm.. nthin's gg rite.. exams round the corner.. no one's cumiin so be iit.. sianx.. ii juz hope everythiin goes well.. hmm.. sianx lorx.. haix.. oh ya.. fel.. help mii invite daryl.. ask him cum wif lester.. jerry still not cfm coz he startiin skool but ii will ask him oso.. yups.. thnx..!!

stayiin cousin hse.. yuppies.. long tym nv ler.. argh!!! doiin stuff and gg crazyy hahas..

iit's tym wen we feel complex and left out..
no more common topics..
mayb ii tink too much.. but ii really feel so..
ii feel so far and lost..
sry to sayy but ii dun feel euu guys by myy side anymore..
tell mii whether ii'm tinkiin much or it's the truth..
[myy.sistahx.myy.life]

2006-09-19T01:53:00.000-07:00

hmm.. cant wake up todae for workk.. toopid ass.. put mii closiin den openiin.. expect ppl to wake up.. dumb.. anywayy.. didnt go work coz slp til 3 plus 4.. work at 10am.. hahas.. too bad.. den yu pei drove mii out to eat.. PIZZA...~ woo.. nice meals.. damn.. ii lost 5kg since ii work.. tink by todae gain backk ler sia.. hahas.. as usuall.. ii miss myy sistahx so muchh.. sorrie nv meet coz todae yu pei call den went out wif her.. no fixed tym dun dare to meet up.. well.. soon.. hahas.. tml ii work til 5 plus.. can meet ler.. ii'll call.. lalala~ sianx.. kkies lahx.. wanna ciaoz liaox.. if not cannot wake up agaiin.. tk care all..

2006-09-15T14:50:00.000-07:00

since so long ii touch myy laptop.. tink collectiin dust ler.. hmm.. wen ask mii update so here ii'm.. been workiin non-stop.. well.. sis.. been long since we meet up.. miss euu guys soo muchh.. argh**.. cannot blame mii horx.. and either did ii meet myy bros.. coz of the toopid chalet ii wanna ab $$ so we can enjoyy til we go crazyy.. wahaha.. hmm.. bear wif iit alittle more.. coz myy chalet iis reachiinn...!!! wahaha.. ii miss euu guys lots..

got myy results.. well.. not bad for sumone hu didnt studyy for iit.. hahas.. ii'm juz glad.. so tired.. cant slp late so wake up earlyy todayy.. ee seng kor mayb celebratiin earlyy bdayy todayy at charvon.. hmm.. well.. ii'll see if ii'm dere.. hahas.. sianx sia..

jie wanna bring mii go out eat but ii dun feel lik eatiin nehx.. so tired.. hahas.. anywayy she's cumiin ta fetch so ii'm goiin ta bath nw.. lalala~ bb...

2006-09-05T23:34:00.000-07:00

ii'm backk.. the trip was fun.. it will be better without all the wounds ii got.. well.. the island iis actuallyy where emo ppl can head to.. we did jetty jump, canoeiin, fireworks, bbq, fishin, swimmin and coz sumthin lik diving.. hmm.. nice view and nice environment.. next target will be tioman.. yupps..

backk dwn to sg.. was goiin bonkas til sudden mood swing.. suddenlyy brain cant seem to focus.. myy heart's iin a mess.. so manyy prob.. yy gib mii so much prob.. and yy tis prob cant b solved.. ii hate iit..!! ii reallyy dunno wat to do ler.. complete lost.. which wayy shld ii go.. where shld ii head.. dun ask mii hw and expects an ans.. coz for tat particular ting.. ii bad.. ii hab nthin to sayy.. hw am ii to ans ur hw.. yy shld ii do.....?? show mii the wayy.. pull mii thru.. ii really need help....

everythiin ii do..
ii do wif a reason..
wateva ii cant explain..
iis wat ii wanna avoid..
ii'm sorryyy....

2006-09-01T23:39:00.000-07:00

hmm.. hahas.. sorryy coz dun reallyy hab tym ta blogg.. so here ii cum.. lalala~ 1 week of hols liaox.. but lik no hols liddat.. been workiin and lik so busyy wif god knows wat.. hahas.. toopid payy so damn low onlyy.. reallyy tinkiin whether will hab enuff for chalet mahx..

tym pass so fast.. one more mth to myy bdayy.. lookiin forward but no excitement.. dunno yy.. hahas.. maybb iit will turn out to be different.. well.. we'll juz hab to see den..

myy mail reallyy turned out to a junk mail.. hahas.. make mii wanna laugh at myy stupidityy.. anywayy.. ii reallyy noe le.. ii'm nthiin to euu anymore.. since iit's liddat.. thnx for beiin cruel tis tym.. coz ii reallyy cant dragg myy tym on liddatt.. ii will move on.. hahas.. lesson learnt.. hope to see euu at myy bdayy chalet..

todae feng rong didi's bdayy.. hahas.. made a kite for qin to gib him.. but tink cant flyy nahx.. anywayy.. he's happii and ii'm too.. got a sense of achievement.. lalala~ went eat jap food wif jie den home.. 2 more dayys and ii'm gone.. ii'll b backk on the 5th.. tk care..

envyy couples..
loves singles..
attracted to love..
wat do ii actuallyy wan....??

2006-08-19T22:48:00.000-07:00

studyy studyy studyy.. but hw cum nthiin's goiin into myy head..!! there completelyy nthiin.. all blank.. wth.. all myy head hab nw iis simplyy sumtiin ii shld hab let go long ago.. whole dayy iin daze.. juz nw go tk past yr paper frm yong.. hahas.. tink too daze ler.. toopid van almost knock mii dwn.. but it's at tat moment ii felt so helpless.. dere's simplyy nthiin.. ii simplyy hab nthiin.. yy mii? yy muz iit b mii.... hw long more do ii hab to put up wiff euu huantiin myy mindd... ii hate euu.. but ii cant..........

dere's not much starrs tonite.. sittiin outside myy hse door lookiin at the skyy.. wat can ii say.. all the flashes.. all the flashback ii hab.. yy muz ii suffer frm all tis.. ii'm holdiin myy tears backk.. fightiin for hard to not cryy.. ii strive to becum wat ii am todayy.. wat ppl see mii as.. a strong ger.. but each tym ii stare into the skyy.. myy heart's drippiin, brkiin.. yy todae.. yy nw..? yy tis period of tym wen exams r neariin.. r euu really here to cause myy downfall.. WHY.........
even ppl can get backk together.. us..? wat abt iit.. stupidityy iis wat ii noe myself as.. euu will nv b back.. ii still tot ii juz saw euu.. but it's all myy illusion.. all along it was juz an ILLUSION....

da strong ger iis collapsiin..
da ger iis dyiin..
but at tis moment..
dere's no one....

2006-08-18T23:01:00.000-07:00

update update update!! hahas. finallyy.. crapp.. watchiin movie lik nobody's biz tis few dayss.. thanx to comp pass got free movie to watch..!! hahas.. thanx daniell..!! lalala~ workiin was crapp.. EXAMS cumiin sianx lik shit.. hmm.. bored....... toopid fireat grand.. hand lik dunno wat.. sob..!! nobody sayang.. =( hahas.. chey.. lik veryy long nv see my bros ler.. hmm.. miss them yea.. argh* holidayy cumiin.. countiin dwn ler.. wahaha.. GREAT!! mama bdayy cumiin.. sianx.. need to save moneyy liaox.. hahas.. wen probation endiin..!! and myy bdayy cumin... happii lik.... wahaha.. though mayb alot ppl not goiin but ii still lookin forward for iit.. II CANT WAIT TO B DRUNK TAT DAYY....!! kkies.. ciaoz..

2006-08-02T00:22:00.000-07:00

workk iis boriin todae...!! saw rock.. so sianx lorx.. tink he super purposelyy lorx.. got other counter dun go wait at myy counter.. sh*t.. den ii see him ler ii siam he still stay there.. ass...!! hu cares..
ABT practical todae we do til lik crazyy liddat.. hahas.. myy atistic talent strike out sia.. no grp building colour will b lik mine lorx.. wahaha.. dumb.. tml field trip.. BIM test cum 1st.. tink next week.. argh* boriin.. juz hope myy exams faster end.. den hols ler.. yea..!! tat's wat ii'm waiting for..!! lalala~

tml iis another dayy.. not workiin coz eatiin reuion dinner wif long lost f*cker xiao bai.. wahaha.. wonder hw he's lik.. 2 and half yrs past so fast sia.. lalala~ so lookin forward to tml.. well.. tat's tat.. ciaoz..~

wat euu wan iis wat ii dun hab..
wat ii can gib is wat euu dun need..
r we fated to be and lost..?

2006-07-31T01:05:00.000-07:00

sun off!! power.. hahas.. ii've neglect lots of stuff.. ii'm being deprived of myy shopping...!! hell was tired..!! reached hm 4 plus neariin 5am ytd.. was crappiin wif work frens den cabbed hm wif jas joyce and fel.. hahas.. got myy hands all cut and burnt.. uglyy hand nw.!! sh*t lorx.. argh*

mahjong session..!! ii lost.. $5.. wahaha.. not bad lahx.. nvm.. hab fun anywayy.. miss cub it's tym euu buy a bigger fan man!! lol.. tml skool and ii'm crappin here.. hmm.. presentation tml.. hope everythiin goes well.. anywayy last presentation tis week den here cums exam..!! omg!!

anywayys, dragon tiger gate was super nice..!!

life's nv better wif euu guys ard..
my life's nv bored..
simplyy love euu guys lots..!!

2006-07-28T00:54:00.000-07:00

todae work tml off.. finallyy off ler.. kinda tired ler.. hmm.. not bad todae nv down.. hahas.. actually not tat bad a place to work.. juz the pay low.. hmm.. well.. projects almost done ler.. but exams cumiin.. super super stress.. coz ii dun wanna repeat module.. tt's berii sianx de.. lol..

meetiin wen tml.. hahas.. miss euu all sooooo much..!! lalala~ here ii cum... anywayy.. miss chen hui wen.. ii wun forget euu r olwaes by myy side.. miss lee shi ya oso.. hahas.. for bros can save iit ler.. coz they wun view write oso waste energyy.. dumb dumb dumb.. so crazyy over weekend cumiin.. wahaha.. workiin on sat for the extra income of 1.5%.. hmm.. myy hp iis backk.. but haven see yet coz kor kor holdiin onto iit..

ii miss myy hp!!!

shi er yue zui hou ji tian..
mei yi pian xue que leng de ke lian..
wo he ni.. fen kai zhen zhen yi nian..
wo song gei wo zhi ji.. di yi ge ping an ye..
rong hua zai ren qun li mian..
dian tai zhong xiang qi wen xing de ying yue..
jie shang de ren..
shuang su de xin duo tian..
dan su de lei duo sian.. wo dou liao jie..
(liang ge ren de xia xue tian..
xia zai xin zhong de xue sui ye kan bu jian..
she me dou bu yong ji nian..
rang wo zhi ji xie ai qing de ju dian..) chorus

[lian ge ren de xia xue tian / xu hui xin]

2006-07-27T13:30:00.000-07:00

skool....... argh* finishiin myy projects soon but there goes exam cumiin.. sh*t
hmmm.. iin lecture.. toopid sia.. cant wake up agaiin.. usuall problem.. cab to skool bloodyy expensive.. nw achiin whole bodyy.. juz cant wait for fri to cum.. a dayy da rest.. finallyy.. work ltr.. crapp... daniel not workiin ii all alone.. all nv work todae.. omg!! forget iit.. it will b another dayy.. ii wanna play mahjong..!! got the form but no tym.. lalala~ crappiin by..

wif a love tt shall not die
till the sun grows cold
and the stars grow old..
myy love nv dies...

2006-07-26T00:23:00.000-07:00

bad dayy.. super super bad.. dwn wif serious attitude prob and ii'm meetiin super bad situation.. 7th mth nw.. sianx.. LCD crackk abit wen washiin warmer.. kinda quarrel wif kel.. went hm and got all moodyy.. todayy counter drop 50cents.. everytiin seem super messed up.. bloodyy tired but ii cant slp.. recieved the worst ever news ii need..

day by dayy.. feel lik everytiin ii hab, all da tings ii do.. iit's all goiin awayy.. all leaviing mii.. wat do ii hab to do.. to get iit all rite agaiin.. yy do ii feel everytiin's myy fault.. ii feel tat even wen ii noe iit's truelyy none of myy fault.. mayb everyone has faults.. but ii noe iit dun lies on mii.. wateva.. juz hope dayys pass and everytiin will be rite.. mayb keep quiet iis da best solution.. hu noes..!!

the onlyy ting ii wish nw..
iis nobodyy to leave..

2006-07-25T01:32:00.000-07:00

tink todae blog too much.. haven slp so kinda wanna blog.. toopid mickkey still discussiin abt white stuff.. and FLOATING.... ass..!! anywayy.. work was fine todae.. except popper spoil den hab to spend more den 2 hrs washing iit.. sorry fel.. make euu wait for mii so long iin the end euu go urself.. next tym after 11.10 ii haven finish den dun wait ler bahx.. if not euu need waste money on cab hm.. hmm.. dun angry kkies..

tml formal wear or shld say half formal.. well.. ard there lahx.. so.. crapp.. ii'm super tired and ii'm still sendin xiao zhu da photos for tml.. haven even iron and packk myy stuff.. wat a day!! kkies.. off ta do myy stuff ler.. ciaoz..~

problematic world..

a day w/o problem

is a problem for mii..

2006-07-24T01:46:00.000-07:00

haviin serious gastric prob after myy medicine.. shit!! todae hav to work.. no choice..!! hahas.. anywayy.. tml hav to dress formal coz got presentation.. dunno tml will hab tym to work anot.. but dun go work lik not good lehx.. keep nv go..!! hmm.. anywayy nvm.. juz work all the wayy ler.. muz faster learn and clear station..!! lalala~ skool's bored.. ii'm dyiin soon.. toopid MICKEY keep emphazing ii weariing white.. dumb ass...

kkies lahx.. super headache.. juz wanna faster finish off this sem.. den to myy bdayy ii peace ler.. wahaha.. tk care ta all.. ciaoz..!!

2006-07-24T01:16:00.000-07:00

okie.. basicallyy was seriouslyy haif dead.. todae took mc coz really cannot ta han myy throat ler.. in the mean of rushiing projects and workiing nw.. hard ta cope ii should sayy.. but for the sake of moneyy.. jia you!! hahas.. 1st day of work was ok.. but tink coz ii sick not really in the mood and ii hab ta stand the whole dayy.. sot!!! hahas.. daniel was really cute SY.. he oso super nice.. hw ii hope he's myy trainer.. anyywayy.. he scolded aunty at candy bar coz aunty shout at mii nw ii super stress iif trained under auntyy.. argh*..

went to buy myy pants and shoes for the presentation ler.. cub..!! ii bought the other one.. the more plain de.. yups.. hahas.. kkies.. ii'm actually spending more den wat ii earn.. so crapp.. and ii'm off ta bed.. ciaoz..

ii'm mad, ii'm dumb and ii'm crazyy
a life with no aim
=)
tat's mii

2006-07-19T12:41:00.000-07:00

well.. nw iin skool.. gona start a whole new life.. gona start work soon.. hope ii wun crash much of myy skool tym.. for tiis.. ii kinda guilty tat ii didnt really do much for the projects.. hmm.. sorrie wor.. ii guess ii got slpiin prob ler.. cant manage to wake up iin tym..

well.. griller guys r haviin so much prob since dey cum.. wth!! anywayy.. ii'm feelin so fucked up nw.. wat shld ii do?? hab ta work for marmie's bdayy present.. really iin need of cash nw.. hahas.. ii'm independant ler..

skool's gettiin more boriin...
esp wif roy sittin beside mii..
no nahx.. jokiin.. haviin no mood for skool..
ii'm iin a holidayy mood...!!

2006-07-13T23:22:00.000-07:00

bad dayy.. or mayb badd weekk.. juz cant wake up for klz.. hab been super late everydayy.. hmm.. marmie juz bought super BIG alarm clock backk.. wahaha.. hello kitty de.. super loud too.. hope it does it's job and ii get to skool on tym.. dumb..

project rushiin.. went plaza to buy board for posters.. went hm do A&P details and touch up on jun ying's ad stuff.. hope tis project really goes well.. hahas.. due tml..!! saw myy 2 precious dummbies at plaza den dragged hm put stuff den dragged to east coast.. go dere dumb dumb see the sea and trees awhile head hm coz miss cub hab to go hm.. hahas.. ii'm so lookin forward to ur discharge date ger..!! and of coz myy holidayss.. argh* hw ii miss my holidayss.. wanna go look for part tym ler.. coz ii wanna hab moneyy!! hahas.. kkies so tat's tat for todae..!! nitez! ciaoz..

da day ii die is tat dayy euu left.
da day ii live is da day my frens r all ard..
so no matter wat.....
ii'll not choose any path to make mii dead again..
tat's juz mii!!!
ATTITUDE

2006-07-10T00:11:00.000-07:00

toopid wen bomb mii up todae.. went griller eat den slackk.. all the wayy til joel cum fetch go for a ride.. lol.. went harbour front den wen go hm den dwn to one fulleton.. eat ICE CREAM... den talk alot of toopid stuff.. face iit.. ii'm done wif the past.. fel..!! ii'm juz happii daii still treat mi as a fren.. ii dun hope for anythin.. a fren iis enuff.. yups.. juz lik euu noe..!! hahas.. euu.. sumting iis best ta b kept iin da heart.. let tis b a sweet memoryy.. instead of makiin it an ugly one..!! rite rite...!! ii noe de lahx.. ii understand ler.. ii juz dun wanna do anythin to change myy life nw.. however ii feel ii need to enjoyy myy current life nw..

well to all my beloved frenz.. chalet cfm booked ler..!! on the 30 sep 1st oct to 2nd oct.. the block haven cum yet.. so to b updated..!! lurves...

memory iis da most beautiful stuff euu can hav..
so dun do anythin to spoil iit..
ugly memory onli reflect badlyy on urself..
ii'm keepiin mine..

2006-07-08T23:57:00.000-07:00

my fav animal.. cub.. penguin slap euu..!!

went zoo.. hahas.. dumb.. so hot.. sat lorryy.. den was crazyy walkiin ard lookin at all the funny animall.. best part iis hiar fly lik siao cha bo.. singiin at the backk of the lorryy wif leonard.. toopid wen and joshua wanna compete loudness.. dumb.. den head to ivan hse play mahjong.. ii nv playy.. so lookiin all the wayy.. onlii play for ivan and joshua awhile.. lalala~ den dwn to find myy bros..!! bought fu wen his present ler.. hmm.. finallyyy..

2006-07-07T23:58:00.000-07:00

da mickey being surrounded..!!

tired bf on mickeyy's shoulder..!! match horx..?!

2006-07-07T23:57:00.000-07:00

maddness at kim seng...!!!

2006-07-07T23:45:00.000-07:00

hmm.. HAPPII BDAYY ELICIA.. hahas.. todayy too manyy pic ler.. so it's all above.. lalala~ happii dayy.. dear ger.. hope euu enjoyy ur bdayy.. see ur mother ii super stress arhx..!! lols.. ur present was nthin much but hope euu lik iit..

went xtt todae.. since dunno wen nv step iin there ler wor.. went carpark slackk and relax.. took fotos.. not much coz too dark.. poor joel hp let us tk til almost low batt.. head backk to find elicia den dwn to kim seng for pool!! not a bad dayy after all.. hab fun ii guess.. hahas..

goodness..!! euu r online todae.. was so hopiin ii cld tok to euu.. but ii'm really afraid of a negative reply.. or even a no reply.. wth..!! shld ii juz tok to euu.. do euu still treat mii as ur fren?? ii dun mind makiin a 1st step.. but there's too many tym myy 1st step came to a bad conclusion.. dis iis da wall.. da toopid wall tat ii'm tryiin to step over to hab euu backk AS MY FREN...

2006-07-02T21:56:00.000-07:00

whole dayy hm..!! not so bad.. didnt go out coz nephew came..!! so todae basicallyy was babyy sittiin.. stared into myy lappyy da whole day.. totallyy no idea wat to do.. well.. ii check the rate for the chalet ler.. got new rate as at april tis yr.. so more ex ler.. well.. so ii'll b goiin out seldom duriin the weekdayys so can save as much as ii can..!!

myy life iis in a totall mess.. wth..!! ii juz cldnt figure out wat's rite and wat's not.. dunno wat ii wan.. ii lie on myy bed and tink but nothiin came into myy mind.. heart beatiin reall slow lik ii cld die any moment.. head spinniin lik hell.. argh* damn.. wateva nahx.. hu cares..!! skool tml.. so tired of everythiin..

2006-06-29T17:43:00.000-07:00

well.. impt ting to sayy nw.. hey myy dear gers.. if next tym no car ride no treats nthin ler dun blame mii wor.. coz ii juz rejected him.. ii dun feel readyy for anytin so ii rather not start.. hahas.. ii'm okie man.. shld hab done tis earlier.. den mayb ii wun feel so bad.. lol.. damn ii'm feeliin bad.. but iit's not the feeliin.. juz feel guiltyy.. super guiltyy.. ii juz wanna b alone..

2006-06-25T23:35:00.000-07:00

todae.. final hols.. tml skool ler.. happii sumhw sad.. wahaha.. anywayy.. went to harbour front to buy myy puma water bottle.. but out of stockk.. sianx.. so head dwn to queens in search.. lol.. but ii nv find.. coz dun hab.. so bought a adiddas bottle instead.. dumb.. anywayy ii'm still lookiin for it.. so yea..!! den together wif elicia and hui wen.. go walk walk.. each bought a pant.. wen got her jeans.. we got our shorts.. hahas.. for a cheap price.. coz aunty noe elicia.. next tym we work iin all diff area.. where oso can get discount..!! =) oh.. ya.. tml wanna go SY hse.. lalala~ since tat dayy she say we nv visit her hse.. so.. hahas.. ii'm cumiin!! wanna alter jeans oso.. so.. yea..!! tml will b a good day!! ii guess..

sumtym it's good ta b alone..
it's tym wen euu reflect urself..
see tings clearer den ever..

2006-06-25T23:27:00.000-07:00

todayy at fullerton.. myy new jacket..!!

2006-06-24T23:24:00.000-07:00

hmm.. dumb.. went marine for lunch @ asian kitchen.. ate soft shell crab.. yum yum..!! den caught hui wen iin shockk.. nice pic gal..!! wahaha.. den went for movie!! juz my luckk..!! NICE SHOW.. hahas.. though hui wen dun understand she still laughiin lik hell.. wahaha.. anyywayy.. got myy puma jacket.. PURPLE..!! thnx joell.. my fav brand and fav colour.. hahas.. everytiin was paid..!! well.. feel kinda bad.. hmm.. well.. send hui wen home coz tis few dayys joel drive us ard.. so.. after tat went to pick SY up after work.. dear gal.. if ii got myy car.. ii pick euu up wenever euu lik.. ii promise.. yups.. head to kim seng for pool.. disturb mickey.. so cute arhx she/he.. wahaha.. hope euu guys hab fun anywayy.. lurves..

2006-06-24T23:14:00.000-07:00

lol.. eatiin soft shell crab.. gotcha..!!

2006-06-24T23:12:00.000-07:00

dear sistahx candyy shot drinkiin fruit punch @ asian kitchen

2006-06-24T01:15:00.000-07:00

hahas.. got form nw.. dumb.. woke up damn late todae.. nw blaziin so long nv listen de techno.. those good old past..!! hmm.. super on form.. lalala~ these few dayys.. berii busyy wif goiin out coz holidayys endiin.. so sad..!! lols.. juz wanna go online and crap alittle.. since so long nv really update myy blog.. so.. dunno wat ta say.. so tata.. hahas..

2006-06-13T20:39:00.000-07:00

haviin camps tis week.. argh* myy grp.. dunno iis heng or suaii.. got the most problematic grp.. worst still all boiis grp.. haix.. ii will nv get to hab myy grp iin their 2 lines straight at all.. NV..!! hell brk lose there.. hmm.. but myy beloved boii iis at tat camp.. wahaha.. iis a ang mo.. jerome nemo.. wahaha.. his pic below.. got his video oso.. soooooooo cute!!!! hahas.. oh yea.. world cup form iis here.. bettiin but aint tat big.. so small small de.. lols.. hmm.. headiin to snow city tml.. hope everytiin will be fine til the camp end.. coz ii'm tired..!! super tired.. hahas.. myy babyy wakes mii up.. wahaha.. lalala~ crappiin myy wayy thru..

2006-06-13T05:24:00.000-07:00

nemo.. myy roller blade camp babyy.. lols.. cute rite..?

2006-06-11T02:30:00.000-07:00

yea.. finallyy done myy overnite adventure camp on thurs and fri!! lols.. myy grp gers r so cute norx.. hahas.. scroll dwn ta look at those cute gers foto.. hahas.. bbq dinner was lik feediin pig and the room was so creeppyy.. wif toopid johnson sayyin he saw a shadow hand at the door area.. bad dayy coz iit's rainiin so escape cancel.. change to indoor playground.. argh* missed myy escape agaiin..! ii wanna go coz ii see so many new games.. hahas..

so todae went to buyy england sg pool.. damn lose ler.. hahas.. but it's okie.. coz onlii bet 5 bucks.. juz for the sake of fun onlii.. lalala~ crapp lorx.. toopid croutch.. so useless.. all under performed.. argh!! okie.. ii'm tired.. reallyy tired.. feel lik slpiin ler.. but kinda dun wanna end myy dayy tat earlyy.. hahas..

da ger hu dunno wat she wants..
da ger hu's a super weirdo..
gn.. tat's hu da ger iish..

2006-06-10T11:11:00.000-07:00

sharmaine.. myy ger ii dote on.. hahas.. aient her juz sweet??

2006-06-10T11:09:00.000-07:00

myy ymca grp for adventure@heart.. so cute rite..!!

2006-06-04T01:54:00.000-07:00

sat nite.. ii'm hm earlyy todae.. wahaha.. so.. HAPPII 17 yrs and 1 day BDAY myy dear SY.. lol.. planned surprise wif ur sis and miss TAN HWEE BOON.. see ur shockiin face wen euu see us.. COOL..~ so ya.. den euu still can LEAVE MY PRESENT IN UR SHOP..!!! argh* nvm.. forgiv euu.. da present got meaniin de horx.. of coz.. hope euu lik iit.. hee..

oh ya.. hmm.. to all frens hu cares.. ii'm fine nahx.. wif my mum.. but haviin cold war wif bro since tat dayy.. so yea.. PEACE..!! hahas.. yuppies.. common test cumiin.. STRESS!! hate tis point of tym iin skool.. holidayy lik nv holidayy liddat.. need go do ymca camps.. after tat muz rush all da projects.. dumb.... crapp!! kkies.. enuff of all tis.. needa go slp ler.. so yea.. nitez all.. and hapii common test week..!!

da ger hu yearns..
playys hard ta get..
attitude freako..
crazyy over TEST..
EXAM PHOBIA...

2006-05-30T15:49:00.000-07:00

haviin ISP.. done wif myy project.. great!! tink not so bad after all.. well.. been so damn tired after ytd's WAR.. tired of everytiin.. juz wanna get awayy for a brk.. grab a fresh air.. felt so lost..!! lik beiin abandon.. hahas.. yy cant ppl understand mii.. ii dun blame iit.. coz ii dun understand myyself either.. wen can tis steorotypiin stop.. smokiin means bad..? hangiin out wif frenz means ah lian?? f iit.. haix.. ytd nite was long..!! dun even noe hu to look for wen ii'm tat bloodyy dwn!! argh* maybb ii was alone after all.. hu cares..!!

do euu tink ii'm really bad..
so wat if ii'm..
euu r disappointed iin mii..?
ii'm BLOODYY DISAPPOINTED IN EUU GUYS too..
juz didnt notice iit..
ii dun tk comment onlii argue..
ever noe yy??
everyone argues.. not ONLI MII..

2006-05-29T23:45:00.000-07:00

great nite iit hab been.. blooddyy fuckiin nite.. hahas.. nw ii noe hw ashamed ii make myy familyy feel.. since sec skool.. da onlii bro ii loved most.. denied myy presence.. coz ii throw his face.. myy mother ii loved.. hahas.. side her precious son.. euu guys nv realised euu guys are trhe one that make mii wat ii am todae.. euu tink ur wateva shit logic and scoldiins are GOOD!!? FUCK OFF.. f off myy life man.. so wat if ii smoke.. so wat if ii fight.. so wat if ii hang ard wif guys.. wat euu 2 see is not wat iit is.. BLOODYY DUN ASSUME..!! say ii ah lian.. throw ur face.. dun worryy.. MR GAVIN SOH.. ii'm not ur sis.. euu r not myy bro.. ii will nv.. NV say euu r myy bro.. ii dun need to tk foto wif euu.. dere's not a need.. dun compare justin and kenny's sis wif mii.. euu tink they good gers..? so wat if they are.. BLOODYY.. they hab sumone treatin them equallyy since young.. try haviin dem iin myy situation.. euu tink it's da same?? hu dun wanna b a good ger.. hu dun wan praises.. BUT EUU 2 NV GAVE MII TAT CHANCE.. EUU 2 R NOT BEING FAIR TO MII.. ii dun ever need tat chance anymore.. II WILL NV PROVE II'M GOOD.. SINCE IT'S ROOTED II'M BAD.. DEN LET MII ROT.. call da police wen euu see mii smoke.. LIK II CARE..!! do wat euu guys deem rite.. LIK USUAL..!! ii'm OLWAES WRONG.. shoo off myy life.. ii'm juz under tis shelter.. tis iis not home..!! no home feel tis wayy.. DUN BLAME MII.. COZ II'M BACK TO WAT II'M B4.. NW.. WORST..!! no more cute little angel.. it's da devil.. wat ii've done iis juz 'it's ur duties to do tat'.. not anymore.. NO MORE... tat angel is slaugthered to death by 2 persons hu ruin her pride and understandiin of familyy.. NW.. ii'ts da devil hu's gona ruin wat shld b right.. EUU MAKE MII DO TIS..
GINNIE'S DEAD.. as from 11.19pm.. 29/05/06.. fuck iit..

2006-05-29T22:05:00.000-07:00

haven been bloggiin.. lol.. so since ii finished myy project so ii blogg.. hmm.. juz finish RER CT today.. shit man.. juz hopiin for a pass.. hmm.. den toopid ISP presentation tml.. so hopiin for holidayss to cum soon.. argh* start skool not long and yea.. kinda tired as tings r goiin in a rush.. peace dwn man..!!

darliin SY called mii todae...!!! ii miss ya lots myy dear.. hmm.. euu workiin we studyiin.. cut dwn our meetiin tym.. but yea.. it juz prove 1 ting.. we r still as good as da past.. even wen we dun meet..!! hee.. ;) ii love euu man.. and coz our tee boon.. hahas.. cuberlin.. lalala~

hopiin tml's presentation goes well.. myy 30%.. juz pass tis.. let tis sem go by.. den wait for myy exam week.. hahas.. juz faster holidayy nahx.. hee.. ii need a brk!!!

2006-05-22T22:37:00.000-07:00

hmm.. ate KFC juz nw.. kinda no fate ta watch 'bao lian lamp' arhx.. fell aslp.. den mama wake mii up ta eat..!! super full plus sure fatteniin..!! lol.. anywayy.. common test cumiin.. sianx.. it's gona b studyyiin tym soon..!! wanna save moneyy b4 ii go on hols.. liddat at least will hab moneyy ta shop..!! haix.. ii wanna get myy scholarship... sianx.. IS module need to follow ppl.. haven even decide on wat ta do.. stressed up!! argh*

suddenlyy hab tis feeliin of goiin overseas ta studyy.. maybb work.. feel lik leaviin tis place.. not for good of coz.. but explore other places.. see more tings.. even be more independant.. ii wanna flyy out alone.. to sumwhere.. juz dunno where.. hmm..

2006-05-20T04:22:00.000-07:00

yea.. lame.. moii legg crampp arhx.. damnn iit.. coz ii and moii crazyy dumbb bros (fuwen and kel) walkk all over chinatown ta find da toopid CRAZY HOUR pub.. lame.. we walkk for lik nearlyy 1 hr juz da find tat place lorx.. hmm.. den went dere..!! show face awhile see them playy pooll.. den backk dwn ta kim seng.. waste of tym onlii lorx.. playy pooll.. as usual lose lorx.. haix.. ONE DAY.. ii will WIN de..!! lol.. juz nw kor kor call.. ask mii dun drink at tanjong pagar.. den ask mii faster go hm..!! hahas.. HE CARES!!! ii'm so happii.. lol.. nw tink counted ah tong bday ler bahx.. HAPPII BDAY!! hmm.. kkies.. coz ii juz reach hm not long.. so ii skippiin lunch wif euu guyys.. meet euu all after norx.. hahas.. helpiin YMCA camp once hols start.. free labour for one week...!! argh* ii wanna work soon!! SY hurryy ask kkies.. thanx lots.. juan and xiao zhu.. if euu guys r goiin CT's bday chalet.. let mii noe so ii can plan myy tym.. tat date ii helpiin YMCA.. so yea.. cfm earlier arhx.. tk caresss ta all.. muahaha..

ii lie but ii dun pretend..
ii cry but not on da outside..
ii sewed my heart up..
but iit's shattered deep iin..
ii yearn for love..
but iit nv cums..
myy soulmate.....

2006-05-16T12:29:00.000-07:00

hmm.. todae iin skool.. presentation.. omg!! couldnt wake up iin the mornin lorx.. bloodyy.. iin the end tk cab ta skool.. waste my money!! todae declared bankrupt.. so not goiin out.. argh* poseidom iis DAMN NICE.. worth ta watch.. so watch iit if euu hab da tym arhx.. next will b da vinci code..!! nice FRICTION show.. but anti-christ lorx.. nvm nahx.. believe iin wat euu believe iin den it wouldnt affect much..!! lols.. goiin presentation ler.. suffer shock tis morinin.. FOO LOONG msg mii.. omg!! ii'm juz glad tat we can be backk as buddy after da brk up.. so ii wldnt wanna try anythin to destroy tiis relationship.. hope euu understand.. mayb ii needed tym.. but wateva iit is.. ii juz hope everythiin will stay at liddat..iit's juz great liddat.. lurves.. ciaoz..

2006-05-14T21:54:00.000-07:00

juz finishh moii food... mother day's dinner.. full..!! ii gain backk moii weight ler lahx.. hahas.. owe moii mother's day present to mama's bday.. no choice arhx.. no $$ mahx.. hahas.. ltr goiin ta meet moii daugther.. oso dunno hw she wann celebrate wif mii.. damn.. mayb oso not celebratiin.. juz meet nia.. useless arhx..!! so.. was crampiin til today after thurs netball.. really muz exercise more ler.. too long nv exercise nw lik whole body achiin.. lol.. thrus netball let ppl tk moii head as ball arhx.. lol.. tink too dark ppl cant see.. nvm nahx.. netball nt tat bad after all.. can lose some weight.. wahaha.. chill...~

my style may not be urs..
but it dun mean we are different..
different personality juz bring us together..

2006-05-10T23:46:00.000-07:00

moii klz of ppl.. fun!! definitelyy interestiin ppl!!! tis happen to be stella's bday.. i onlii get to upload iit nw.. so... hahas..

2006-05-10T02:45:00.000-07:00

you bei ai shang le yo bian.. wu suo wei..
dang zuo chen zhang..
gang gang zou kai de ren.. yan hai dian zhe..
wei dao que dan le..
(wo bing bu shi tian shen ai ji mo..
que bi ren he ren dou duo..
jiu suan ba shi jie ge wo..
wo hai shi yi wu suo you..)
(wo yao kuai le.. wo yao neng sui de an wen..
you xie ren.. bu bao le cai wen nuan..
li kai le cai bu hen.. wo zhao yi gai ge she..
wo yao kuai le.. na ba xie de zai da sheng.
she me shi ri de.. quan dou shi jia de..
zhi you yan lei shi zhen de..) [chorus]
ba cong qian xiang le yi bian.. xie xie le..
shang wo de ren..
xiang le you guan de ren.. mei zhong yu shen..
ting le dou bu leng..
()
(chorus)
wo de jue ding shi dui de..

moii decision was right from da start..
even wen ii regretted..
ii realised wat went wrong..
wo de jue ding....

2006-05-10T02:28:00.000-07:00

well well.. juz beiin damn bored and sad.. coz moii bro say ii goiin fat..!! damn iit.. ii'm gona lose fats.. ii swear..!! moii aim for moii target figure olwaes half hangiin.. ii'm dyiin...!!! lol.. been wastiin moneyy on pool lik nobody's biz lahx.. toopid pinkyy and kel.. keep winnin and winnin.. argh* nvm.. netball cumiin up tiis thurs.. so lookiin forward to iit.. coz ii wanna lose weight..!! so yea.. town experiment was dumb but not bad.. presentation will be so damn... nvm.. projects and projects.. GOD!! save mii.. lol.. ciaoz..

2006-05-07T05:33:00.000-07:00

xin.. bei han feng cui guo.. xian xian de zi you..
hai ying ying zuo tong.. dang tai yang chen mo..
wo men de gu shi xuan jue zhong..
xiang.. bei shi jian cui guo.. jin tian de zi you..
shi yi dao cai hong..
dai wo ying jie ming tian zui liang de jing kuo..
wo gen yan lei wang qian zuo..
yong wei xiao jiao hun xing fu bai ou..
wo men gou gou shou..
bu zhun bu kuai le.. (dao di sui guo kuai le)
jiu ba she bu de dou tui jing hui yi de hei dong chun feng..
wo men gou gou shou..
ru guo yu jian gen hao de ren..
yi ding yao gen jian qiang yong gan qu zui qiu..
(yi ding gen jian qiang ba ai.. yong gan zui qiu)

extracted from guo mei mei [gou gou shou]
da promise ii make for myself..
for euu ta see..
wo hui yu jian gen hao de ren..
hui gen jian qiang.. gen kuai le..

2006-05-07T05:05:00.000-07:00

hmm.. met huiwen todae.. got moii hair cut..!! not short.. juz trimmin.. lol.. den went ta eat at lai lai wif nemo.. damn.. hw fast we escaped!! wahaha.. pinky dey all cum not long after.. den buaii buaii ta cub and nemo.. so left mii alone.. went kim seng ta play pool.. lol.. won fu wen one match won kelvin 2 or 3 match.. forget liaox.. but ii lose more.. sob;( was fun anywayy.. pinkyy so talkactive.. noisyy arhx..! lol.. went hm ard 3 plus goiin 4.. slackk life ii got.. but it's fun.. so hell wif it..

da ugly side of life..
da annoyyiin part iin life..
da ones ard moii life..
thanx!!
SCREAMS!!
ii juz wanna dance all nite.........

2006-05-05T21:00:00.000-07:00

hmm.. at hm ler.. damn mens cum todae.. spoil moii dayy totallyy.. argh* pms and moodyy all over.. skool wasnt lik skool todae.. lecturers dun care and nobodyy simplyy care.. hahas.. well disco nite was fun alrite.. though iit looks kinda boriin at 1st.. if dere were nicer songs and atmosphere euu bet.. juz lik clubbiin.. lol.. missed clubbiin.. soon ii guess..? anywayy was danciin throughout.. challengiin the other grps.. NRA's HOT!! sorriie guyys.. ii not goiin backk ler.. hate da audition part.. da 4/8.. but ii really missed danciin.. argh* contridicting...

myy head reallyy squeeze for NRA or not.. tink too costlyy ler bahx.. so ii'll juz make do wif netball ler.. hope it's fun.. lol.. so yea..

moii horo say on da 3rd got a guy cumiin.. but ii simplyy see no one.. omg!!
proven horo cannot believe...!!
da part ii missed most..
iish beiin loved..
even ta love..
guess ii'll still missed iit til..
da right guy cums...

2006-05-04T13:30:00.000-07:00

hmm.. ii'm bored to death iin lecture..!! advance building tech.. cries* tis klz iis crazyy.. wif crazyy stella sitting beside mii peepiin at wat ii'm writing.. dumb!! hahas.. haviin disco night ltr at 6pm.. tink it's gona be bored! saw the room lik.. ahem.. party??! no atmosphere.. lol.. so tis few days r lik.. skool and home.. so.. kinda no life lorx.. but still enjoyiin life liddat..

sat went ta stella xiao zhu bday party.. actually wanna go escape on sun.. but her mama dun let plus she's sick.. hahas.. but bbq was fun.. so was ur mum!! terrence so ke lian..!! hahas.. took so many pics.. not reallyy much but at least much more den usual... lol.. cute..!! wanna learn hw to use photo bucket ler.. hmm..

moii dearest beloved sistahx.. tis few days nv meet dun means ii dun care ler wor.. and dun mean we not as good as da past.. juz means no matter we meet or not.. our relationship will stay as good..!! hahas.. sorrie wor.. was busyy iin skool.. lurve euu guys lik nv b4.. ying.wen.ya.

2006-04-21T20:08:00.000-07:00

hahas.. long long tym blog one tym.. hmmm.. kkies nahx.. tis few days been bz wif skool.. da orentation.. not bad arhx.. at least hab sum activities iin skool.. done banner and stuff on wed.. den thurs and fri did orentation.. lols.. wanna go join BE idol ler.. not bad nahx.. but cfm wun get iin de.. hahas..

startiin skool on tis mon!! excited.. but skool days.. argh* bored.. but nvm.. can past tym faster.. so actually not tat bad nahx.. joiniin netball.. but still hab ta go trial 1st.. hahas.. juan and stella acc mii together.. lalala~ wanna juz get over and done wif.. so fast yr 2 ler.. yesh!!

so actuallyy LSY.. moii bf.. dun tink so much nahx.. coz ii tis few days iis go skool.. den b4 tat normallyy slpiin mahx.. plua euu tat tym oso say euu lazyy so nv reply moii msg.. so nv meet norx.. yups.. no worry nahx.. wo men hai shi hen hao de sistahx.. zui hao de peng you.. en ai de "nan nui peng you".. hahas.. lurves...

suddenlyy got tis feeliin ta go steadyy.. but no ppl ta stead wif.. so... hab ta search.. gers/guys.. dunno ler.. juz da feeliin bahx.. ii wanna lurve too.. nvm.. sure will de.. onlii when.. hahas.. wo hao xiang zai gan shou bei aii de gan jue.. yin wei ai ren shi tong ku de.. bei ai cai shi xing fu de..

wo yi zhi xiang ai..
dan pa ni ge bu liao wo yao de ai..
xin sui de wo..
bu gan ai.. zhi gan hen..

2006-04-11T02:27:00.000-07:00

look at me
you may think you see
who i really am
but you'll never know me
every day
it's as if i play a part
now i see
if i wear a mask
i can fool the world
but i cannot fool my heart
who is that girl i see
staring straight back at me
when will my reflection show
who i am inside?
i am now in a world
where i have to hide my heart
and what i believe in
but somehow
i will show the world
what's inside my heart
and be loved for who i am
who is that girl i see
staring straight back at me?
why is my reflection
someone i don't know?
must i pretend that i'm someone else?
for all time
when will my reflection show
who i am inside?
there's a heart that must be free to fly
that burns with a need to know the reason why
why must we all conceal
what we think?
how we feel?
must there be a secret me
i'm forced to hide
i won't pretend that i'm
someone else for all time
when will my reflection show
who i am inside?
when will my reflection show
who i am inside

2006-04-11T02:15:00.000-07:00

hmm.. hahas.. since ii can online.. so ii'm gona blog.. in case ii cant blog agaiin.. so.. here ii am.. toopid bf say ii slow.. hmmpx.. change of heart ler lahx.!!! hahas.. anywayy.. yahx.. tis few days at hm.. maybb went out at nite awhile den back hm.. so no life rite.. kkies nahx.. nt bad though.. so.. anywayy.. hahas.. meetiin moii poly mates out tml or maybb shld say ltr.. argh!! wonderful.. finallyy goiin sumwhere.. lols.. so lookiin forward.. but tink cant wake up so.. xiao zhu hab ta endure wakiin mii up ler... wahaha.. toopid ger kana fooled by mii duriin april fool.. sound lik she cry.. make mii so scared kkies.. hahas.. anywayy.. wat a nice fren..!! kkies nahx.. reward euu wif ta best polyy mate ii ever had title.. hee.. happii?? MUZ BE arhx.. lols..

moii reflection on...,
my life my love my everytiin..
FAILED

2006-04-10T04:58:00.000-07:00

ii wanna update moii blogg.. hahas.. so long nv online ler.. finallyy bro's out den can use com ler.. woooooooo... tis tym online oso nobodyy de.. boriin.. tis few daes hab been boriin.. moii beloved bf dun wanna meet mii..!! argh* got moii pay.. damn lil lorx.. cannot spend on shoppiin on other tings nerx.. coz ii needa save for moii chalet.. sianx.. haix.. gib moii mama $$ ler ii still needa save b4 ii got enuff for chalet.. bored..!!

my.tears.olwaes.rain.in.da.city.
euu.can.nv.see.mii.cry.on.da.outside.anymore.
my.love.will.b.reserved.for.no.one.
coz.da.fragile.broken.hart.is.locked.
locked.away.frm.further.wounds.

2006-03-31T07:12:00.000-08:00

hahas.. good morniin!! it's earlyy 6.57am.. hmm.. bored.. so blog..
well.. watchiin summer scent.. nice show.. oso make mii realised.. ii didnt make a wrong choice.. ii didnt decide a wrong move.. ii got to understand yy ii feel tat wayy at tat point of tym.. ii chose ta let euu go.. ii gave euu da right to make ur own choice.. hab ur own decision.. and nw ii noe.. we r not meant ta b.. coz if euu were mine.. we wld b so long ago.. hahas.. duno yy ii wld live iin tat mist for long.. bein confused by moii lost.. ii did lose sumtin ii hold dearlyy to.. but nw.. ii hold a precious chance to go for sumone else.. better or even more meant ta b.. ppl may tink ii'm juz tryiin ta bluff myself.. tryiin to get past by an lame and stupid excuse.. but well.. say all euu guys wan.. coz hey.. ii really open up and let go ler.. it's nw ii realised.. dere r much better ting.. ppl hu cares.. ii hab much more tings to do.. to go for den juz waitiin.. my life aint all abt waitiin.. it's mi hu dun gib myself a brk.. nw ii do.. ii'm happier.. thnx for all hu cares.. thnx for everytin.. thnx euu for giviin mii a memorious past.. sumtin ii wun forget.. but ii will no longer pursue.. xie xie ni zai 3 nian qian gei wo na 8 ge yue de ai he hui yi.. and sorrie for hurtiin euu.. ii'm juz happii euu r carryiin life to da fullest.. tis will b da last ever post abt euu.. dui bu qi.. we r juz meant ta b frenx.. ii no longer cry on the outside.. coz ii'm juz mii.. tk care.. ciaoz..

2006-03-31T04:13:00.000-08:00

juz got hm lik hmm.. hahas.. toopid bf wrote wat cannot make iit to gym tml.. euu better make iit wor.. ii'm not slpiin for ur gym wor..!! argh* hahas.. ii wanna slim dwn ler.. been eatiin lik no bodyy's biz.. ii lik her blog skiin.. but moii pic lik not tat much arhx!!! ii jealous ler.. moii bf got more of other ppl's pic!!! UNFAIR!! hahas..

well.. slackk at plaza wif bf til she went hm last train.. den waited for ah hee and mitch ta join mii.. den slackk til mac closes.. headed to OCK siit dere.. saw moii long lost sec bestie.. hahas.. tok lik no nid moneyy.. hmm.. interestiin.. den went hm coz moii beloved bro hungry!! tis few days r/s wif him not bad ler.. at least we tok more den quarrel.. ii loved iit.. wahaha..~ bored.. watchiin the contender wif him nw.. so bored!!

ii love moii life nw.. freedom and nice.. carefree iis wat ii loved.. nthin ta bother much abt.. tiis is juz da life.. hahas.. bf.. no matter wat iit is.. euu can olwaes tell mii.. coz ii wun dun bother abt wat euu say.. seriouslyy.. mayb sumtym wat ii say iis not wat euu lik ta hear.. but ii rather let euu noe wat ii really feel abt wat ii tink.. mayb ii'm not rite.. but wateva iit is.. follow ur heart.. coz iit nv lies..!! hee..

ii dun cry anymore
let da rain cry on myy behalf
let myy hart heal
by den babyy dun brk iit....

2006-03-28T23:31:00.000-08:00

well.. backk hm frm bugiis trip.. toopid kel earlyy morniin at plaza.. anywayy.. woke up at 2pm den headed dwn to plaza ta meet him den backk ta moii bf's hse. hahas.. den went bugiis wif qin and bf and kel.. hahas.. met joel dere and yea.. den dey rushed hm ta watch the shining star.. leave mii alone!!! sob~ nvm..

BF.. euu noe horx.. ii tink lahx.. steven bluff ppl wan.. dunno he reallyy will gib mahx.. coz he ask mii wait for him at plaza but he nv cum so ii went hm ler.. nvm lorx.. if reallyy dun hab den forget iit lorx.. yups.. we find other plan..!! hahas..

goiin ta b stucked at hm watchiin vcds ler.. so yea.. ii'm gona finish tat vcd soon and return ta qin.. hahas.. sianx.. hw ii wish nw ii wld live at tanglin halt.. moii here lik so deadlyy.. argh* nvm..!! lalala~

it's nice to noe we had iit all..
thnx for watchiin as ii fall..
thnx for actiin lik euu care..
so much for moii happii endiin..

2006-03-26T18:41:00.000-08:00

hmm.. todae is rest dayy.. goiin out lik everydayy.. out til late.. last nite return hm feel so guilty.. nv acc moii mama.. so decided ta stayy hm todae to acc her.. lalala.. sorrie wor ying and bf.. suddenlyy nv go out wif euu all.. hmm.. ying meet euu duriin da weekends norx.. or wat bahx.. bf ii meetiin euu tml arhx.. hahas.. anywayy.. ii got a feeliin euu ii mean bf euu..!! hahas.. hmm haven reallyy got over... eh.. hahas.. euu noe de.. da one euu recentlyy say euu got over ler.. hahas.. well.. six sense ii guess.. maybb ii'm wrong but well.. JIA YOU lorx.. for anythiin euu wish ta do.. lalala~

ii'm bored at hm.. ltr wanna watch final destination ltr wif moii mama.. hahas.. sianx.. bored.. kkies.. moii tv sumthin wrong ler.. gtg.. hahas.. bb..

2006-03-25T04:17:00.000-08:00

kkies.. so well.. tis few dayys been acc moii bf.. hahas.. acc her duriin work tym.. so reallyy lik couples.. hahas.. been so bored tat we took photo while she wait for ta shop to close.. hmm.. hahas.. workiin tml babe?? ii miss euu olreadii.. anywayy.. if euu happen ta pass by moii blog.. juz ta tell euu ii submit pic ta euu ler.. iin frenster.. and well.. ii juz manage ta submit one and deyy sayy cant ler.. coz it's full.. clear iit dar.. lols..

well.. todae.. lame.. coz was all readyy for joggiin den false alarm.. coz bf tot queenswayy haviin sports dayy.. but yea.. wasnt til afternoon.. so went backk ta bed.. let's book another appointment and make sure we DO make iit.. hee.. coz ii'm gettiin all so FATS.. yupx.. ii wanna go swimmiin.. can we..?? hahas..

kkies nahx.. after bf went hm slackk at mac til fu wen dey all cum backk.. so yea.. headed ta kim seng.. see dem playy pool and billiard til lik 3.30am?? omg!! actuallyy goiin kim tian eat asked ah hee and mitch ta join but well.. ii went hm ler.. hahas.. mama didnt call todae.. so strange.. well.. coz bro wasnt hm.. hahas.. tml playiin mahjong.. coz not forgettiin meetiin moii precious bf hu will b workiin hard tml.. hmm.. so unseperable arhx.. hahas..

we were meant ta b
supposed ta b
but we lost iit..
well maybb tat's ta game ii'm playiin..
lalala..
moii trust & confidence iis headiin backk..
god ii miiss dem so much..

2006-03-22T03:37:00.000-08:00

hahas.. ii'm done wif no job.. no moneyy.. no life and coz.. NO LOVER..!! lols.. uploadiin tat bf pic for her.. argh* so ma fan.. hahas.. nvm.. luckyy cum backk kor kor nv use laptop.. if not sure quarrel again de.. euu heng arhx!!

anywayy.. juz cum backk frm xtt.. once iin blue moon fel and kel send mii hm den tk cab backk.. hahas.. so gentleman of euu 2 arhx.. kkies norx.. supposed ta b hm ard 12am de.. den toopid both of dem missed da last train coz micth nv tell dem properly where to meet.. den end up ii U-turn backk ta find dem.. hahas.. oh ya.. juz watched da DATE MOVIE.. not bad wor.. lame and crappyy.. and tat ger sure can shake..!! lols.. wen will myy true love ever cum..?!! nahx..!! hu cares.. yuppies.. boriin man..!! planniin go joggiin tml agaiin.. hope we really did run.. hahas.. if not..!! moii fats dunno wanna burn where..

hmm.. toopid fel.. dun tok abt tat JACK kkies.. omg..!! tat is so impossible lorx.. ii rather wan moii daughter den her.. lols.. opps.. kkies.. tats bad.. but hu oso will lorx.. lalala~ rather stay single for nw.. hahas.. jio mii lahx.. den ii'll b urs..

OF COZ.. NOT FORGETIIN MOII BRO..!! HAPPII 20 BDAYY.. SO OLD LER.. EEKX.. SOON WILL B MY TURN.. ARGH**hahas.. ii lurve euu lots..

dayys past w/o euu..
ii'm still surviviin..
iit tks more strenght ta cryy..
so happii will b wat ii stayed on ta b..

2006-03-21T13:57:00.000-08:00

moii life
moii lurve
moii everytiin..
gone<

haix.. boriin man.. wake up feel so relieve coz tongue not pain.. hu noes.. omg!! ltr so pain.. hmm.. didnt go work.. decide ta quit ler.. such a failure.. work oso cant work properlyy.. anywayy.. moii xiao zhu called.. not same klz as moii other 3 bloodyy princesses.. shit lorx.. ii wan moii former klz.. wtf lorx..

toopid bf still iin her lala land.. ii'm goiin ta b bored ta death ler lahx.. wake up lehx.. hahas.. hmm.. ii'm actuallyy tinkiin of juz straight away go ur hse find euu wor.. shld ii?? hahas.. if ii ltr reallyy damn bored den sayy norx.. mayb euu oso wake up ler.. ur testi for mii iin frenster.. wat euu writin sia.. wat iis _ _ _ _??

kkies.. ii'm gona start moii slackkiin and rottiin life as frm nw.. omg!! cant stand iit man.. hope another job can find mii soon.. hahas.. wateva.. kkies nahx.. see nite can onlii den blog again norx.. hahas.. tk care ta all nw.. bb..

dun hide frm mii
let mii noe da truth
den ii wouldnt look lik a dumb ass
iin search of sumtin ii nv will hab..

2006-03-21T01:42:00.000-08:00

hahas.. sianx.. waste moii $$ go tk mc.. coz i olreadii dun feel lik workiin le.. sux man tat job.. boriin..!! argh* hahas.. but tml hab ta work.. ah yo.. dun work no $$ lehx.. still consideriin..!!

hmm.. tat wagaga iis so interestiin.. cant stop usiin at words.. lols.. kkies nahx.. acc moii bf whole dayy todae.. horx..?? sooner or ltr ppl sure will question mii hu is moii bf de.. wahaha.. slowly guess norx.. lalala~

moii tongue iis berii pain nahx.. pig..!! ass.. ltr moii bf got hotdog mouth ii got hotdog tongue.. hahas.. liddat berii pei lehx.. wahaha.. dun screw mii arhx.. boo~ bored..!!

euu siaox kkies miss fel.. ii jealous..?? nthin ta b.. so stop ur wild imagination.. hahas.. euu den ahem ahem wor.. hahas.. ka siaox.. tis few dayys and her... will iit be..?? lols.. kkies lahx.. dun di siaox euu.. lalala~ ii goiin ta slp ler.. bb.. lurve euu..!! ii berii faithful ta euu de.. no worryy..!!

2006-03-20T13:45:00.000-08:00

GOOD AFTERNOON MOII BF.. hahas.. ii oso got wake up nahx.. but dunno yy fall backk aslp ii oso dunno.. hmm.. die lahx.. tink no hart workk dere ler.. so cannot wake up.. sianx norx.. ii dun wan so fast dun work.. ltr no $$ wat oso cannot do.. ltr moii fairyy flyy awayy den dun blame mii horx.. lols.. euu tis ass.. no use de.. nwadayys hong other ppl..!! mii lehx.. forget mii ler rite.. argh* still can hong da ger at far east.. den in da end ii finish work oso dunno yy got bung stare mii..!! omg!! ltr they really cum 01-31 find mii arhx.. hahas..

euu tis ass.. ask euu help mii pierce lik will die liddat.. argh* euu selfish ass.. hahas.. ah yo.. ii dun wan other ppl pierce for mii.. ii shy.. WAGAGAGA.. hmm.. see hw norx.. ltr euu acc mii go tk mc 1st.. den we eat ler den decide again.. go ur hse slackk lahx.. ii wanna relax todayy nehx.. though boriin but ii lik so long dun hab tis type of life ler wor.. haix.. finish moii 1 mth.. tk moii payy.. den run ler.. ii wanna enjoyy moii holidayy oso.. hahas..

tink ii really goiin crazyy ler.. goiin all out for tings ii nv wanted ta do.. fairy!! moii pure bodyy.. argh* hahas.. pierciin tongue..!! and turniin crk.. hw interestin life can ever b.. ii'm gona go all out for tings ii nv tot of doiin.. coz tiis is all abt mii..!! hahas..

die..!! tink jack crush mii ler.. wahaha.. omg!! tat's a complete NO WAY.. hahas.. coz ii loved moii bf.. horx.. FLSY..!!!

pamper mii
handle mii wif care
coz fragile heart
once broken
considered dead......
tat iis juz hw simplyy dead moii heart iis..

2006-03-16T01:12:00.000-08:00

hmm.. boriin dayy.. went workk den slackk at plaza after tat.. coz ah hee meet mii.. den dwn came mitch.. act cool!! hmm.. hope euu dun see iit.. ;) lolx.. anywayy.. feel so tired.. but den.. cant slp nehx.. hahas.. toopid fel.. ii miss euu.. lols.. do euu miss mii?? bet euu dun.. arg* lousyy bf.. muz change another one ler.. wahaGAGA..

ii wanna change moii life.. change moii style.. change moii everytiin.. hahas.. den euu guys wun noe it's mii..!! so interestiin.. ahha.. tml work agaiin.. cant wait ta finish moii 1 mth.. den at least can dun go work ler.. hahas.. wanna relax too for moii skool holidayys.. coz.. ii do hope ii dun fail any modules.. ii dun wanna retain..!!

gettiin moii target backk.. ii wan backk moii figure.. wooo lala.. hahas.. nw abit goiin ta be stomach bigger den ahem ler.. hahas.. II DUN WAN..!! help!! hmm.. wateva iit is.. ii start ta tink ii not tat failure beiin a crook after all harx.. coz..... hmmm.. ii promise not ta sayy so yea..!! guess..... lols.. panic..? dun be.. coz ii wun sayy a ting de.. heex..

ii turniin crook.. P iis moii label..!! ii said iit.. and ii mean iit.. so yea.. hell wif iit.. coz here ii cum.. diff to turn backk?? hu cares..!! ii juz wan iit tis wayy.. hahas.. moii one day bf.. euu really can go consider jio mii norx.. hahas.. WERID...!! lolx.. kkies nahx.. dun play ler.. but ii'm serious iin ta 1st part.. ii'm proud ta sayy.. ii'm a P...!!! argh* hahas.. hope vevian wun screw mii up.. ;x

ii'm iin a mood for fun..
iin a mood for sum stuff done..
ii wanna love..
and moii fun dun means playiin love..
coz ii wun b afford ta lose agaiin..
yearniin for sum love..

2006-03-15T01:23:00.000-08:00

hahas.. was online todae.. appear offline iin msn.. coz... hmm.. didnt hab much tym online.. juz beg moii bro to let mii online while he's bathiin.. yea..

off todayy.. hahas.. finallyy.. rest after 8 days of work.. hmm.. rest til kinda dun wanna work anymore.. so tiriin.. but dun work oso waste tym.. muz save moneyy.. hahas.. den can go shoppiin..!! hmm.. dun wanna go town duriin off dayy so went bugiis instead.. wif tat crazyy ying and fel.. we 3 lik sum crazyy babes.. took photo den went plaza slackk.. not tat bad after all.. lols..

yea.. moii dear 1 dayy bf.. trust ur sense.? but iit's isnt tat.. mayb lik wat ii tag euu.. den sayy norx.. hahas.. moii sistahx.. meant ta be.. ii simplyy feel wateva or whoever it iis.. ii dun dare ta trust anymore.. maybb.. ii couldnt find confidence iin moiiself lik those dayys.. da fact tat ii lost so much iin a go.. suffered too much heart brks.. it's juz hard to step on iit.. ii wanna love too.. but hw iis it possible wen ii dunno hw to trust anyone.. be it guys or maybb gers..? hmm.. ii wanna step hard on iit. ii wanna to trust.. but hw can ii get started..? for euu noe hu!! hahas.. ii dun lik ta share.. euu get wat ii mean..? lolx.. tat's juz for IF.. yea.. so ii juz wanna live moii life as iit is.. stop tinkiin much.. well.. lik euu sayy.. wat's mine will be.. so yy bother..? hahas.. die.. got ur pattern le.. mayb treatiin love as a game aint tat bad after all.. but ii cant afford wor.. lols.. hmm..

ii forget da feeliin of love.. ii forget the feeliin of tings being mine.. ii yearn for iit.. but iit's hard ta get.. wo wang le xin fu shi she me.. so.. hell iit.. WAGAGAGA.!! lols.. tk cares til ii online again bahx.. nitex..

a heart to broken to patch..
a truth so hard ta face..
a love so hard ta get..
gin^

2006-03-10T02:34:00.000-08:00

due to connectionn prob.. cant geta online much.. lesser blogs ler.. hmm.. updatiin iin process so.. yea.. here it goes..

been workiin for the past 4 dayys.. legs lik so damn tired.. feeliin crazyy.. werid.. wateva euu name.. juz chat wif fel online.. hahas.. changed moii blog ler.. nice?? hahas.. euu sure say nope de.. damn!! hmm.. ii really let go ler.. but ii really wonder.. will it be.., ii've dropped into a hole tinkiin ii've climbed out of another.. hahas.. chim horx.. read slowly.. mayb euu guys will understand.. ii learnt to look forward ler.. but.. but.. haix..

bcum a fear ler.. tink too much or the fact..? so hard da diff.. not abt da trust.. it's all abt mii.. being such a failure.. ii fear nv da succeed.. iin life.. iin love or anythiin.. dift? or fade..? mayb iit's all moii wishful tinkiin.. all abt haviin moii attention..? iis she right abt iit..? a game ta euu? ii'm in a right or wrong trackk.. hu can ii ask..? hw will dey judge? ii wanna noe da truth.. but hu has it..? wat am ii da euu..? a spare or a passiin tym dummyy.. either one hurts.. coz ii hab fallen iin ler.. deep enuff da b hurt.. juz lik rubbiin salt on da original wound tinkiin it's recoveriin.. painful and dumb..

feed mii wif da truth

lurve mii lik euu said

pamper mii wif all ur hart

2006-02-27T13:51:00.000-08:00

hmm.. shine after raiin.. iit's all over.. e deadlyy war.. e unnecssaryy fight... learnt so much after all tis.. so hard ta trust.. so impossible to noe hu might kill euu from behind.. juz a simple stab.. hmmm.. unpredictable.. anywayy.. juz so really glad and wateva tat iit's all over.. phew..!!

kkies.. since all tis all over.. here iis another stress.. damn iit.. skooll!! EXAMS... tml lorx.. LAW.. ls kill mii.. ii cant get ta get tings iin moii mind nw.. argh!! boo~ toopid... ii dun wanna fail anythiin.. it's lik waste of tym.. hmmm..

hahas.. simple life iish wat ii asked for.. pls juz leave all those rubbish awayy frm mii.. coz it's all non of moii concern.. and ii hate ta face all dose rubbish anymore.. so shityy.. hmm.. gona cut hair ltr.. wahaha.. ii wan new style.. bored of moii boriin hair style.. lol.. nthiin feel better den noeiin hu iis ta backstabber.. feel disappointed.. but at least relieved..

ii'm not gona try or even pursue anytin.. juz as natural as iit could b.. let nature tk it's course den.. no more strength to hold on.. no more feel to hang dere.. ii hate da feeliin of hangiin so ii've let go.. and ii'm feeliin good.. hmm..

2006-02-22T15:37:00.000-08:00

hmm.. home sweet home!! lalala~ tiriin dayys past.. wat a dayy.. todae the weather funnii.. rain le stop.. stop le rain.. hahas.. toopid.. so glad to be hm.. toopid hp low batt for so manyy dayys.. den nv bring charger..!! cannot use fone!! argh*

nw slackkin on moi comfortable bed!! hmm.. no where's beta den hm.. hahas.. holidayy cumiin.. yea!! exams cumiin too.. dun even noe moii exam timetable.. lols.. waitiin for tym ta past.. den moii lovelyy daughter to finish skool den meet!! hahas.. miss ya soooo muchh!! bet euu didnt miss mii abit.. nvm den.. hee.......

dayys pastt fast and carefree..!! nthiin to be bothered abt.. nothiin to stress.. nothiin to worryy.. hw nice..!! haven hab such dayys lik so long ago.. moii life.. moii tym.. moii everytiin..!! maybb iit's juz coz ii'm not goiin to be bothered by anythiin anymore..!! life goes on man!! hahas.. hu cares.....

ii'm not gona gib iin to anythiin anymore.. coz ii really dun feel ii'm at any fault.. and ii dun even tink wat ii had done iish wrong.. as compared to tings sum had done.. moii actions r lik ants.. nthiin compared to euu guys.. yy dun sum juz go tink abt iit.. over and over.. hu gave iin all e tym.. tis tym.. hell NO.. hatemiicoziimightnotlikeeuuatall.. nothiinmeansanythintomiianymore..
numb to everytiin.. no more feeliings ler.. and it's all coz of...................

GINNIE IS DEAD..!! RIP IN HER HM SWEET HM.. SHE IS NW JUZ A WALKIN ZOMBIE.. HEART DEAD SINCE NEW YR.. NW FULLY DEAD..!!

2006-02-19T14:00:00.000-08:00

gosh.. been sickk since the 15th til nw.. omg!! toopid sickkness.. argh* fri.. shu yi cum moii hse den slackk at moii hse til ard 8 plus den went out.. tiriin dayy.. hmm.. den plaza nobody de.. saw meng dey all.. hahas.. boriin.. den went xtt.. ard 11 plus went hm ler.. coz tired til almost slp at xtt..

ytd.. wen jio go her hse play mahjong.. iin the end nv go coz she nid go aunt hse.. den elicia meet mii at plaza.. hahas.. den slackk whole dayy dere til qin and shu yi cum dwn.. habnt been doiin much lorx.. nthiin to do too.. sooner den we noe.. it's nite tym.. no moon!! stars alot.. hw ii wish.. haix.. nvm.. den jie cum dwn coz joshua dey all jio playy mahjong at her hse.. so went her hse norx.. alot of ppl wor.. lik mahjong den liddat.. wahaha.. den mitch call.. so went mac sit and tok cock wif her and ah hee til 1 plus den head backk to jie's hse.. bored man~

dun tink ii dun mean iit wen ii sayy ii'm lettin go.. coz ii'd been doiin iit.. and ii'd done iit.. trust mii.. life without euu arent tat bad after all.. leadiin a diff kinda life nw.. dunno yy changes keep happeniin to mii.. even faults r mine wen ii didnt even do anytiin wrong.. hahas.. hu cares.. moii life still hab ta go on.. if euu tinks ii' iin ta wrong.. den treat iit as ii'm iin ta wrong.. coz ii hate to owe ppl explaination anymore.. and ii dun owe anyone any..!! tiis is mii.. and ii hadnt change one bitt.. hate iit tis wayy..

2006-02-15T15:07:00.000-08:00

hmm.. valentine's ytd.. not tat bad ii supposed..!! the onlii ting iish ii went home wiif a swollen middle finger..! hahas.. thanx man!! lalala.. received a rose from stella juan ms and yj.. thanx euu guys rox..!! well.. ii hab da studyy ler.. fri haviin IWD test.. den mon cum CAD.. shit man..

anywayy.. went tanniin wif wei hao, joel and yun xiang on sun.. cool weather.. shldnt hab wore the shirt.. nw ii hab diff shades of colours.. omg!! hahas.. ii'm enjoyiin so far.. happii wif wat ii hav.. couldnt care much for wat ii dun.. guess ii'm liviin moii life to ta fullest ler harx.. hope so.. hmm.. boriin dayys.. nvm.. holidayy cumiin soon.. march the 3rd.. hahas.. great..!! go and earn $$ ler.. lalala~ ciaox..

2006-02-02T10:15:00.000-08:00

yups.. updatiin moii blog nw.. since iin skool.. actuallyy doiin major project.. but... hahas.. slackiin thru.. well.. lunar new yr past.. backk iin skool.. bored~ ii guess tat's juz life harx.. hmm.. presentation todayy.. juz do it.. ii dun tink ii hab a choice.. pass iit and dun hab ta go next week.. wahaha..~

tiis few dayys hab been goiin thru lotsa tings.. lol.. finallyy realise the part where kindness dun get paid.. got backstab instead.. well.. tat's life agaiin yea..!! so unexpected..!! giiviin iin dun mean ii dun mind, dun care.. giviin attitude dun mean ii changed..!! well.. ii changed..!! ALOT.. hah.. adapt coz ii'm gona change 360 degree.. if euu disike mii.. say iit.. coz ii hate ppl hu appear to lik.. but stab a knife behind.. lol.. esp those hu ii really care lots.. iit's hurts..

well.. attitude pwincess iish backk.. giviin iin iish no longer iin moii dictionaryy.. a new life begiin from todae.. [09/03/03] euu no longer stay iin moii heart.. so out euu go.. ii'm gona live moii life to the fullest.. get wat's mine.. leave wat's not..!!

ii dun mind ppl hatiin mii.. coz ii can olwaes adapt moii life alone.. loner ii shall be.. coz ii will no longer trust anyone after ii noe.. euu guys dislike mii.. cut out the act..!! coz euu guys' actiin sux..!!

2006-01-21T11:50:00.000-08:00

hmm.. woke up so earlyy lik so funnyy.. toopid kor kor on tv and lappyy songs so loud.. den make mii wake up.. wake up ler cant slp backk ler.. den cub call.. sotts de.. ask mii go library playy computer.. dots.. den she cumiin over nw juz to playy com.. hahas.. not bad..!!

ytd reached hm 2plus.. toopid kelvin.. dun wan earlyy go temple wif fu wen they all.. dots.. den ask mii acc him wen he all the wayy tokiin to his beloved dear dear..!! hmm.. nvm..slackk at xtt.. tok cock wif ho meng til 1 plus den go eat.. argh** fatteniin.. lols.. den go hm ler.. coz kelvin go kim seng.. on the wayy saw police car.. scareded.. hahas.. but nv kana screen.. hmm.. tis few dayys police becum good ler wor.. yupx..

ltr goiin to buy new yr clothes.. goiin wif cub fel and qin bahx.. wahaha.. ii wanna shop..!! finallyy.. lalalala~ kkies tat's all.. waitiin for the bloodyy shit to cum.. ii so hungry......

2006-01-15T17:44:00.000-08:00

hmm.. finallyy got sum slp todayy.. slp til 3 plus neariin 4 bahx.. den wen call.. so dwn to bugis.. yups.. go shop shop den iin the end.. acc pinkyy and joel go playy billard.. hahas.. after tat went to eat den dwn to kim seng agaiin.. tiis few dayys lik keep goiin kim seng sia.. hmm..

after tat went to great world acc fu wen and frenz to eat at mac.. den dwn to kbox.. haix.. sing til 4 den we left.. iin search of POSB bank.. found le so tk cabbie hm wif pinkyy playboii and botak.. yups..

to fel.. sistahx... sorriie lehx.. ii feel damn bad.. juz nw lik ps euu liddat.. ii dunno hw to explaiin but ah ya.. berii fan arhx.. haix.. hope euu dun feel outcasted.. coz ii reallyy lurve euu as moii sistahx.. hmm.. hope euu dun go anyhw tinkk bahx.. tml tinkk meet euu all after euu all finish sentosa.. tk cares.. lurves..!!

2006-01-12T01:13:00.000-08:00

... ii'm bored.. skool dayys r sooo tiriin..!! hmm.. needa go hm early.. slp early.. wake up early.. omg!! sianx...... IAC so complicated.. tis week even week den count as odd week.. wateva lahx.. anywayy oso good.. coz dun need go skool so early.. 3pm to 5pm tml.. bored.. waste of moii tym.. den tml dunno after skool go where slackk oso.. fri start at 9am.. cannot go hm late..!! boriin thurs... haix..

happii tym past fast.. sad tym past lik hell.. wen will moii sad tym end..?? happii tym ii'm haviin arhx.. cool.. yuppiies.. ii'm juz tryiin to enjoyy moii life.. cant ii even do tat..? sickk of so manii manii tings.. hah.. ii'm gona smile and laugh and joke til the dayy ii'm dead.. coz ii hate tat retarded sulkiin face to b on moii face.. til moii heart die.. til the dayy ii finallyy cry.. til den.. it's not over..!!

ii will try to hold on as long as ii can..
juz wif a hope for euu to b backk..
a single hope ii hold dear to..
tell mii if euu dun need mii..
ii'll leave..
but ii'll still be dere if euu ever need mii..
but dun treat mii as a spare tyre..
coz ii'm not..
so dun tell mii euu lurve mii
wen euu dun..
coz it HURTS..!!

2006-01-09T01:12:00.000-08:00

skool tml.. haix.. lectures and tutorials agaiin.. boos.. boriin dayys.. ii wanna scream... wanna shout... skool is really not the ting for mii.. ii wan moii life backk.. ii juz wan to hav wat ii used to hav backk..!! all backk........

tis few dayys watched movies..!! hmm.. today watch the dark.. so complicated..!! argh* wateva.. hahas.. ytd watch narnia.. woot.. nice show..!! really nice..!! anywayy.. it's been dayys since ii update agaiin.. opps.. thanx guyys.. ii'm fine..!! and ii did not MIA moiiself kkies.. it's juz nv meet.. yups.. meanwhile tk caress...

fel...!! ii nv flirt ur daddy JOEL kkies.. hahas. jio him patch iis juz a joke.. cant euu see!!! omg.. lalala~ ii'm gona disturb ur slp tml.. blast open ur hse door after skool..!! tk cares.. dun sing til tml no voice wor.. hahas.. lurves..

dere's olwaes sumting euu nv noe.. euu nv tot.. euu nv care..
moii heart had olreadii broke..
broken into thousands of pieces..!!
hw much it hurts or hw much pain ii'm iin isnt e point..
it's juz..
perhaps ii'm olreadii glad euu treat mii as a fren..
though we nv tok.. nv exchange glares..
ii lurve euu as moii one and onlii ONCE..
but ii'm loviin euu nw as juz a fren..
it's juz wat moii mind is sayyiin..
but ii wanna do wat moii heart says..
can ii?? well.. NOPE........................

2006-01-07T02:01:00.000-08:00

well.. a new yr olreadii.. cool.. hahas.. glad to sayy.. ii'm 18 tis yr.. wahaha.. great!! finallyy 18.. lalala~ hmm.. common test juz over.. not bad though.. but feel so disappointed iin sum.. esp LAW.. omg!! nvm abt iit le.. IT ALL OVER.. and ii'm glad..

well.. tis week.. is terrible.. haviin bad tummy ache for lik almost a week.. esp WED... hurt so much ii couldnt stand.. dunno wat's the prob though.. maybb appendix.. hahas.. well.. hu cares..!! yuppies.. feel more relax after common test.. wahaha..

chinese new yr cumiin.. tym to shop for new clothes.. hmm.. new dressiin.. LADY?? most prob.. hahas.. b amazed..!! well mayb not.. lols.. juz hope more money can cum.. den ii can buyy more tings..!!

moii feeliin hab nv been tat relax.. maybb ii reallyy let go.. good isnt iit.. everytiin is over.. frenz we shall b.. well.. ii earned one more fren.. great..!! hope ii'm really happii wif it tis wayy.. anyway.. guess ii dun hab a choice.. so.. yuppies..

missy fel..!! ii flirt ur daddy?? hu..?? ii nv flirt ying ming lehx.. and ii haven even started flirtin..!! hahas.. tk cares.. lurves*

2005-12-27T03:46:00.000-08:00

opps.. so long since ii update..!! hmm.. felt so updated arhx.. update mii soon yea..!! tk cares wor.. for those ii didnt celebrate xmas wif.. belated MERRY CHRISTMAS.. and happy cumiin new year..!! hahas.. tiis holidayys iis reallyy playiin and wanderiin.. ii haven studied for moii common test yet..!! ELS sux man.. skool openiin soon.. dunno good or not good wor.. hahas.. no mood for studies..!!

juz had moii hair cut.. let's start afresh.. hahas.. boriin dayys man..!! been slackkiin.. ii wanna flirt flirt flirt.. lalala~ but no potential too.. wahaha.. wateva..!! sooo hungryy now lahx.. everytiin backk to square.. climbiin out of tat hole nw.. frenz we shall be.. mayb not even frenz harx.. it's okie.. ii dun gib a damn anymorr.. and ii serious..

finallyy really noe tat thread has brk.. and nv recoverable.. moviin on wif life.. hahas.. there's plenty of tings to b tried out.. adventurous mood..!! discoveryy centre nw.. lolx..

euu brk moii heart.. shattered moii dreams.. destroyed moii hope.. ruined moii life..
ii'm not revengeful.. revenge iis no no..
instead.. ii'll prove.. life still goes on wif out euu..
ii'll b happyy and fortune..
ii'm growiin stronger and stronger each dayy.. fragile heart no morre..

2005-12-18T00:50:00.000-08:00

todae no skool open arhx.. damn.. waste of tym.. dun worryy qin.. sure hab de.. dun gib up..!! hahas.. help euu find til one skool.. lalala~

juz reached hm.. shld b slpiin soon bahx.. nthiin to do lehx.. tml goiin church wif mama.. den go xiao zhu hse to try to noe CAD.. omg!! faster understand.. faster test finish.. faster holidayy.. hahas.. ii wanna holidayy.. wanna stay out late.. wanna slp til nite.. wanna stay iin france tym agaiin.. ii wanna do lots of ting.. no enuff tym.. not enuff courage..

ii wanna lurve..!!

ii wanna sing and dance whole nite.. de-stressiin iin process.. ii wanna find a way to throw out moii frustration.. ii wanna throw moii temper.. ii wanna hit sumone real hard.. ii wanna let moii hair dwn.. wanna shop til moii leg brk.. wanna cry til moii eyes drop and ii wanna so much to tell euu.. ii reallyy lurve euu.. really do..

hahas.. pillows up high and dreamiin...

watch king kong.. so NICE lorx.. omg!! touchiin show.. the beast die coz of beauty.. so WEI DA.. will dere ever b sumone liddat.. lurve really iis blind.. so hard to resist.. so temptiin to touch.. so hard to forget..

2005-12-17T01:04:00.000-08:00

hahas.. yoyo so sad.. he still left her iin the end.. well.. tat muz hab been wat others r sayiin.. nv meant to be.. hahas.. ii learnt.. not tym tat heal wounds.. iit's love.. will ii ever find iit.. sure bahx..!! ai qing jia you!!

todae law test.. omg.. so sad.. kinda lik let teacher dwn liddat.. reallyy hope ii DO did well.. WELL ii mean.. omg!! ii'm gettiin ambitious arent ii.. hmm.. cant help either.. boreness driviin mii crazyy.. reallyy crazyy.. nuts!!

so wishiin to hab euu backk.. well.. dream on!!

tml acc qin go diff skool to enrol.. hmm.. hope sun can really understand CAD man.. if not mon die.. if not for mon test.. ii'm habiin moii holidayy..!! argh* so iin need of brk nw.. head gibiin mii prob nw.. tink it's backk.. pls go awayy..!! margain killiin mii man!! panadols r lik moii food.. hahas.. lalala~ ii'm damn bored...

2005-12-16T01:49:00.000-08:00

well.. been muggiin hard for the law common test.. tat's reallyy a torture..!! hahas.. hand hurt frm writiin so much.. tkiin a short brk nw b4 ii turn iinto bed.. lalala~ ii'm bored..

studyyin and studyyiin.. no choice.. promised stella ii will get moii 2 toilet paper (cert) for 2 subjects.. so.. dun wanna let her dwn.. lalala~

muggiin halfwayy.. peter foo loong and zhan hao meet mii at moii hse dwnstairss.. well.. tok cock and smoke behind moii hse til ard 12 plus.. mosquitoes bitiin so went hm le.. toopid.. hahas..

christmas cumiin..!! festive seasons.. hahas.. ii juz loved iit.. holidayys after tml and mon common tests.. hahas.. cool.. yesh!! a brk.. finallyy.. wanna go joggiin every morniin.. moii project slim dwn.. lalala~ ii'm serious..!! well.. been kinda ok tis few dayys.. boredd~ but still kkies bahx.. well needa slp le.. tml meetiin juan and stella and rafeah to studyy b4 test.. jia you le..!! good luckk to all den.. will update soon yea.. tk karess...

2005-12-11T18:41:00.000-08:00

a boriing sunday wif nothin to do and no one to meet.. ii'm boredd.. dead boredd..

ii'm approachiin a project forget.. hahas.. hmm.. muz keep moiiself busyy.. but lik nthiin to keep moii busyy on sundayys wor.. lalala~ actuallyy wanna studyy law.. but wat oso cant go iin.. omg!! faster holidayy.. studyyiin is stressful..!! haix.. bored..

2005-12-11T02:58:00.000-08:00

PERFECT TIMING ii sayy todae.. damn.. early morniin gib mii a shock of moii life.. omg..!! meet juan and stella 1pm at plaza teach acc.. den on moii wayy up to the 4th floor juz nice saw mengg, ting and daii.. scare mii.. EUU say ii stare at euu.. no manners.. hu wanna stare at euu.. ... ii really didnt lorx.. sianx diao.. haix.. ii got heart attackk den stare euu lahx.. see euu longer ltr heart drop out arhx.. forget iit.. nvm..!!

went ms bday at marina.. eatt and eatt and eatt.. lol.. so full lahx.. tink reallyy need to slim dwn le.. fatt man..!! mood swingiin at marina.. hope ii didnt spoil sportt.. anywayy.. thanx guyys for tryyiin to make mii happyy.. reallyy appreciate tat.. reallyy do and needed iit.. hahaas.. lurve euu guyys lots..

went backk plaza meet ya and mengg.. qin and jackyy dere too.. sit at mac awhile go xtt le.. den go dere.. tok cock awhile ya and qin and jackky left le.. left mii and mengg.. actuallyy mengg meetiin him.. but 2-3am.. siaox.. so late or rather earlyy.. hahas.. den tok cock wif mengg til 2.20am den walkk hm.. tok alot toopid tingg lahx.. wahaha.. hope wat ii tink will not cum true.. anywayy.. sumone juz gib mii hope.. but tat's the last ting ii need.. ii dun wanna hope.. either hav or not.. currentlyy.. nope!! hahass.. obvious..!!

either hav or let go.. but ii rather hab euu den to let go.. but if really no choice.. den no point.. hw ii wish wat ii feel iis not real..!! plz dun cum true..